Blood brain barrier and meds…

I have said this every time doctors want to give me medications… 99.9% of all man-made drugs and supplements give me issues…

Some I can adjust to and the side affects do go away… When the neurologist last year diagnosed me officially with Autonomic and Peripheral neuropathy, she gave me a list of supplements to take… Most of which I had taken in the past and discontinued because of issues with my body or brain and the specific supplement…

On that list a couple of new supplements and after taking them for a couple of weeks, they went in the trash… because… I was either throwing up or sitting on the throne and when I discontinued the supplement, the issues went away…

As for man-made medications… Levothyroxine is the absolute worse and after finally getting my doctor to hear me, she lowered the dose to a level I could tolerate… after 26 years of taking the drug… I finally have no depression caused by that SPECIFIC drug… sigh…

When in the office last week because my blood pressure and heart rate would not come down… the doctor but me on a beta-blocker… Now I know a little about that kind of drug and I knew that it is one that leaves high levels in the brain, in other words, the drug cross’ the blood brain barrier and it turns people like me into raving lunatics… okay a little exaggerated, but if you had been in my house yesterday, you would have thought King Kong had moved in….

Yes the drug brought my blood pressure under control…. but….. It has done nothing to calm me, it is keeping me awake, it is causing me not to eat, it is causing me pain in my abdomen, it is causing issues with a bladder that is beyond repair if anything else goes wrong, it is making me bitchy beyond anything I have dealt with in the last 12 months and it is making my body hurt badly and it has done very little to get my tachycardia to quit playing ping-pong inside my chest…. but it is working according to the science…

Tell that to the pain in my right lobe that just transversed to the left side….

Last night and every night since I started this medication a week ago, has been a living hell and the body is showing it and the attitude is taking it and running with it…

But I am supposed to have no feelings of any kind as I found out last Friday in the doctor’s office…

I have to try to control myself, my emotions, my feelings, my anger and my frustration, but the medical staff in that clinic get to act like assholes and treat me like a child, instead of a patient with a brain injury…

I guarantee you most of those employees are christians and they think everyone should be as hateful and bigoted as they are…and they forget, health care means doing no harm to patients… not at that clinic!!!

So over this part of the journey and so hope my lawyer calls on Monday as planned to give us good news…

We are getting the hell out of hell… 

Yea, Hawaii the Aloha state… Not if you are round-eyed, white skinned and an atheist…. and most of all….

A woman veteran… I keep asking what happened to do no harm to patients and I never get an answer… and so far the Hilo VA clinic let me know what they think of woman veterans and the 3 doctors I have hired since we moved here have shown me exactly what they think of women veterans with brain injuries…

We are to be seen not heard… gee that does sound like christianity… stupid at its best…

So over bigots and their complete and total lack of humanity… and yep, I can not quit this medication until they fix the problem in my skull that will have to undergo additonal testing, because the next test, will just confirm what I have been screaming and shouting for decades and christians think their god will fix it… sadly it is their god that did it!!!

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I Remember… Margie… hope someone does after the VA puts me 6 feet under…

Sgt. USAF DAV