When the professionals scramble…un-wanted intrusion in my day…

I just let go a massive sigh… much like what I dealt with, when the Air Force covered up the rapes and attempted murder and I lost my career, all because of image… I am so over EGOS!!!!!

Just got a call from the doctor’s office, to refer me to some doctor to have my vision checked…

Do you know, that since I was 16 years old, I have had my eyes checked at least every 2 years and lots of times, that was every year… I am 64 years old… so consistency in some of my health care I had control over… the VA and American health care not so much…

Anyhow and I feel for the young woman who called me, I am sleep deprived, I am in pain and my head hurts where the fistula is NOT!!!

When Mike and I got married a quarter century ago… I mentioned to the eye doctor who did my exam back in the early 90’s, that I had some blurred vision and once in a while it would be double vision, mostly in the right eye, but the left would do it too… something ongoing since Japan 1968…

Well fast forward 25 years later and that is an issue that is daily and one I brought up in Aug to my primary care and was told the VA only does exams every 2 years and I could use my medicare, which meant paying my deductible… not a lot, but enough that it would impact our budget… so I decided to wait until the EEG stuff, the subsequent MRI in Dec and the next MRI, next week… why???

Because every eye doctor has told me exactly the same thing and some of them did more extensive testing… what did I learn… Freda ate raw fish and a parasite hit my eye in utero and was encased in calcium and had been their since I was in the womb… If it had migrated it would have blinded me in the womb… end of story, nothing more to it and NO it never had an impact on my vision…

What did have an impact on my vision… the beating on Japan… by the time we moved into base housing, I was having vision issues… and of course no one told any health care professional about the brain damage, death or stroke…. I just threw up in my mouth… ugh!!!

The eye doctor I saw here on Hawaii, I told him exactly what I told you in my blog and he did a thorough exam and showed me the parasite, yada, yada, yada…. but could find no cause for the double vision or anything else… WHY??? Because it’s neurological and a MRI will provide that evidence that I seek, if they look for it….

One weird thing about all this, it has been getting real active since last summer… my VISION is changing… there are many times I take my glass’ off and leave them off (and just a FYI my vision was/is real crappy), because it is as if I have 20/20 vision again… and then the pain will hit the side of my head and I will feel the vessels start to enlarge and the pressure on the optic area becomes intrusive and that is when the double vision, the blurred vision happens…

I was so angry after the phone call, all of that happened in seconds and I am now sitting at my computer, no glass’ no large print and not one problem seeing… I leave my glass’ off now, not just because I can see without them… the pain from the arms hurt my head and I wear the lightest stuff they make and have them adjusted, because that is a symptom that has picked up speed and intrusion into my daily life over the last 20 years…

Can I say for certain that this is all neurological… as the person living it, and having been living with it since my christian parents killed me…

YES!!! For patients to be heard… someone has to listen… not interpret to their way of thinking, but listen to the lesson the patient is trying to convey…

I learned that after a doctor I worked with in the military missed the oral cancer he was trained to detect…

I learned to not only hear… but listen and hear and understand their words and not put my spin on it… you have no idea how I long, to get the kind of treatment I gave my patients… I experienced it once… the surgeon on Oahu, Dr. Yee… now that is humanity in a perfect little shell…

As for the vision, until the MRA test is done next week, I have no need to see any other doctors… I have lost all confidence in the VA and the health care I am currently recieving… and why is that…

Because I was and have been told repeatedly by every doctor I have seen… we will address that issue next time or it nevers gets addressed, because they forgot or the patient with the brain injury forgot…

I have areas of my body that need to be investigated and like always, I bring something up, it gets dismissed and the years just pile on… yep, I have zero confidence in my health care at this point and time and I am so tired of that side of my head hurting… so very tired of it…

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I Remember… Margie… whose voice is still being silenced…

Sgt. USAF DAV