Anger gone… what fills the void….

At one time when I talked about the rapes I was forced to endure… I was angry… and when I talked of what happened to my children, that anger flowed out in a rage that left me breathless… and wanting blood…

As the #MeToo movement came about and more women and men came forward, I knew, I was not alone and I also knew I would never get justice… just like so many others…

The shame is not on me, but the ones who perpetrated the crimes in the name of their gods… called Jesus… and under their oath in the United States Air Force…

As I talked over the last 13 months of the violence I endured at the hands of Don & Freda Bagwell, that rage came back along with anger and a desire to hurt those that hurt me…

Knowing full well I would never drop to the level of evil that christians are and always will be…

I listened to the victims tell how they forgave those that hurt them and I knew, religion colored their thought process, because it is religion that believes we should forgive those who rape, murder, lie, steal and cheat their way through life…

I so disagree with that thought… They do not deserve any forgiveness of any kind and never should be welcomed back into the fold of humanity and you ask why???

The people who committed crimes against me, my children and so many more….

Made a conscious choice, a choice they chose over their own humanity… they stole from you and me…

Forgiveness is nothing more than a christian head fake, when in reality, those that commit such crimes, should never be allowed to live in or among society ever…

They made a choice to gain pleasure from someone else’s pain…

That choice should leave them forever on the outside looking in and I have every right to make that choice to not allow them back into my world…

To forgive and move on is to allow that person to own your soul, because they won over your humanity and left you the victim feeling guilt and pain… they will always win… if you forgive them…

Life is and always will be, about choice…

Forgiveness is not humanity, it is stupidity at its best… and your own fear of being left on the outside looking in…

I choose my world and my humanity over the christian head fake…

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I Remember… Margie… please do…

Sgt. USAF DAV