Anger outburst, Apology accepted…

As this has evolved with my adjusting to the reality of death, brain injury, multiple ones and a stroke at 13 years of age…

I had to learn some psychology so that I didn’t literally beat myself up on a daily basis…

Part of the area of my brain damage, impacted my personality and I brought that up to an Air Force psychiatrist, his response was anything but professional and that was when I knew I was being pushed out to protect Vance AFB image, but the truth about rape and attempted murder would be swept under the rug… and that was 1983, and psychology became my new pet interest…

Though I didn’t know exactly what was wrong with my brain in 1977,  it was obvious for decades the VA and Air Force had zero interest in helping me… now most of those involved with the cover up are dead and all that is left, a paper trail and my body of evidence….

Me….

Now about the anger… I own my behavior, always have… you can take it or leave it and you can love me or hate me… that is 100% on you, not me…

As the last 13 months have passed and I have recovered the repressed memories and once I got the MRI results verifying the brain damage… that was when the anvil sitting on my shoulders disappeared… I knew where my anger came from and I knew why…

Severe traumatic Brain Injury to the right superior lateral lobe and it stole from me… it stole Margie, the passive, bubbly little girl who died in Big Springs, Texas and the Air Force knew…

If I had not had the intelligence to deal with this journey, suicide would have been written all over my epitaph decades ago… but I knew, deep in my mind I knew, this was not me and for 50 years the battle raged between Maggi & Margie…

Is their a winner yet… You know their may never be a winner in this life time….

I will only lose, If I quit growing as a person… I will lose if I fail to own my life….

Knowledge is the most powerful gift you can give yourself… I acknowledge that because of a TBI not of my making… there will always be that moment in time, where the brain injury wins and Margie loses… but I acknowledge it is out of my control…

Because 2 christian adults murdered a little girl, because she knew the truth…

Fixing this blood clot in my skull will not change the personality that was left, after a traumatic brain injury… the person I am, is who I am meant to be…. and I need make no excuses to anyone on this earth….

I own who I am and I am very proud of the woman I have become, despite the christians taking my life… they never got my soul… that belongs to….

Margie…

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I Remember… Margie… please do…

Sgt. USAF DAV