What happens next???

Relief is an understatement… no clots, no fistulas or aneurysms…. no occluded vessels… which gives me a clue about the occluded vessel that goes to my heart that the Air Force found in 1978…. thoraic trauma, which makes sense with the way those ribs hurt and I never hurt them… but someone else did…

The journey is a rocky road, with lots of quick sand in the middle…

One thing Mike will tell you… tell her what is wrong and she figures out how to live with it and it becomes part of me…

Well we still do not know what is wrong with me, we know now for sure, I had a stroke and a bleed on the brain… and since there is no blood clot, will go with this supposition…

The stroke happened 1967, Big Springs, Texas when Margie died… now for the blood on the brain… for that one, I doubt it happened when the stroke incident happened… No, I think, with the memory of how sick I was because I pissed off Freda & Peggy and Don beat the crap out of me and it had not been a year since the stroke… that is when the brain bled… It makes sense with the symptoms I remember having for those couple of weeks I was down and out… and no, they never took me to the doctor… I was evidence…

We know that I was repeatedly dropped from the top bunk onto the floor on my back impacting the back of the skull… bone scans confirm that damage…

So this all could be as simple as excess fluid on the brain from the spine and they will want to do a spinal tap… so not up for that test…

Paper tests will not give them any further information… I was diagnosed with PTSD in 2011 at the El Paso, VA…. and that is the kind of test they would give me… been there and done that… redundancy is for the kids… we have that answer and that could be the cause of lots of my issues…

But I kind of doubt it… I think there is something else and I haven’t a clue what it could be…

But something is taking from me and something is making daily life more challenging that it needs to be…

All I know… my primary doctor was 100% right and I was wrong… and I have no problem owning that… 

I see the neurologist next month… he may order some more tests… but it will be interesting to hear what he has to say… got a feeling I just might learn something…

MS & Parkinson’s are always possible, I doubt if the other stuff would apply…

But like I said, it could be nothing more than PTSD and I need to learn to work the brain in a different way, so the reaction I get is positive and not a hinderance…

Long day over, we are both beat and the drug they gave me for the MRI… never again… turned me into a female gonzila!!!

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I Remember… Margie…

Sgt. USAF DAV