Pain and understanding it….

The physical pain is something that has been with me since I was 6 years old and the first beating that left me with blunt force trauma fractures in both arms, legs, thighs, chest, right hand, wrist and little finger…which is telling me as I type, quit using the damn little finger it hurts… sigh… another thing to have the doctor refer me on… it may need surgery, the pain is getting stomach churning, which means, it lets me know it’s not set right from when it broke and was never addressed by the doctors… it was hidden like so much of my body damage… and the pain, is not the kind you can ignore… ugh!!! yep this is the picture of all the damage as she digs her fingers into my injured arm… christians… have zero use for the bastards…

WHY

Once they told me officially about the two neuropathy issues I have, I did my research and I know we need a mini gym in our home, just no place to put it in this tiny home, so I walk, do things to build upper body and the exercises the orthopedic gave me and they help, but I know it’s not enough and I need professional help, so I will ask for a referral to PT on my next appointment in February…

Headaches… I really do not like self diagnosing… I can guess… but I would rather the pro’s do their job, but there is a very good chance these head pains I have are related to the stroke and they are migraines and the drug the doc just had me on for BP is for those type of issues… only one problem… I can not tolerate the medication… always a catch 22 with meds, supplements and my body… and I listen to my body… the doctors may not, but I do… So maybe the neuro dude I am seeing in a few weeks will be the one to make the call… so Tylenol as needed and that seems to help reduce how much the head hurts, but doesn’t stop all the pain from a couple of areas in my head…

I do have the area that is located near my primary vessel to my heart that hurts a lot, but I think that may be muscle or something like that related, but I don’t know… my blood pressure is rising, so that tells me something is going on with my vascular makeup… but with no plaque, occlusion or clots in the brain, it makes me doubt it is vascular, you would think it would show in the brain as well as the body… I mean it is all veins…

So another question I may or may not get to bring up… I never know what words I will be allowed to say in a doctor’s office anymore… it is obvious I have had to fight to be heard, but only one area is being addressed and that was the one I was most scared over and now that is coming to an end… it would be nice to get the following looked at…

Re-visit the occluded vein to my heart…

Check the little finger and see if anything is fixable with that old break or is it something that will just be???

Find out why my feet are so tight and Neuro may give me that answer in a few weeks…

Why does the muscle in my left back shoulder-blade area, never relax… again PT might fix that…

Vision, get a definitive answer as to the blurry and once in a while double vision… that may be stroke related…

Finally, why has it taken the VA since May of 2018, to approve dental implants… with a patient like me, whose body is riddled with nerve damage, implants is the only way to stop all the pain I have in my mouth… I have had root canals done and the pain is still on going… Why am I waiting for so long, when I am a priority 1, service connected 100% disabled vet… yet I have heard no word on my dental surgery… not a peep…. bet the men did though… 

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I Remember… Margie…

Sgt. USAF DAV