My Reality just got uncomfortable….

Amazing is the brain we have, it will never let me be bored…. We are working to get things ready for supper and I tell Mike, I have 2nd thoughts about going back to Okanogan county and settling down…

Is it that gypsy itch from my time working for the government or is it just me….

Neither actually…. 

I have to want to live someplace… It has to hold something tangible for me… not Mike… Me… now why is that…

Unlike most people, I have moved my whole life… The longest place I ever lived, is Okanogan county… where the phrase, “You didn’t lose your wife/girlfriend, you just lost your turn”… which I still find amusing today…

I am still not pushing my blog out there, for me to be able to do what I want with it, I either take the lap top and sit in front of AT&T store, so I have a good signal and put up with strangers coughing and breathing on me, and here covering your mouth only happens so you don’t spew your food… true story, that’s how we got our winter cold, someone coughed on us in public… sigh………………..

But you would think those few friends and family I let into my world, they would promote my story… and there we have our conundrum…. that is not happening… no people here on the blog site have done that for me and they don’t even know me, they have no emotional attachment to me, but they read my story and they started promoting my blog…

So why can’t I get that same support by family and friends??? Oh that is an easy answer, from our perspective… Mike & I…

My story would embarrass them…

For people to find out your grandmother or step mom or cousin or friend, was ganged raped or beaten to death… Oh… my… that would just create to much of a fuss…. in other words…

People who are extroverts are more likely to be outgoing and they like that attention…

Where as someone like me, who prefers the isolation, the solitude, not really working at getting the word out there and who’s to blame…

No one… but is does create a conundrum for us… We watch on face book and how there is so much promotion of Native this or that, celebrity this or that, or Animal this or that… 

It just tells me, that I do not touch the lives, that think they are connected to me in some fashion…

My story, my values, my life… do not mean to them what the Native this, Animal this, celebrity this… get where I am going???

It still comes back to the question of what we do when we leave here… and frankly, I do not think a final home will be it… and since no one is truly interested in our lives, okay, there are a couple, it’s not all dark and gloom… but is that enough to sway us, to make our final home in Okanogan county???

I doubt it very seriously… we may decide to buy a bigger truck and a massive 5th wheel and for those who don’t know what that is… it’s a 45 foot travel trailer on steroids… and we just might travel the United States and I write my book that way…

Nothing is ever written in stone… it only takes a stick of dynamite to break that stone…

Yep, life is definitely going to get interesting for us in the next 24 months… we just need a home base for our medical care… and that just might be over in the area of Gig Harbor… where little brother bought a house with my inheritance… that money did come from the house I help to pay for…

Check mate…

TimesUp #MeToo WhyIDidntTell

I Remember… Margie… who loved to see new places…

Sgt. USAF DAV