Quick write…

BP is exactly where it was when I was 21…. I think, I hate doing that I really do sometimes… but this is another situation where denial was king and I was the slave…

I used to drink lots of Dr. Pepper and I would consume 2 or 3 cups of coffee and I knew with the soda the pre diabetes thing and caffeine… so I quit the soda.. I might drink 1 7UP a week, maybe 1…. rarely more, usually less…

If I am right, this is just another thing I addressed half ass instead of all the way… 

I swear if you want a worse enemy… look in the mirror… I rolled my eyes on that line!!!

I have been doing half ass things to make things better for my health, but not committing all the way 100% and it has come back to bite me in that proverbial ass, which I don’t have… All Bagwell’s have flat butts!!!!

I mean the only chocolate I munch is chips, with nuts that are 100% natural… and that is usually a late night snack…

I know if I want this experiment to be true and factual, I am going to have to avoid coffee tomorrow morning and no kind of chocolate snack if it has coco in it, real chocolate, which has caffeine or something similar…

If this is what it takes to keep me from having to take medication… then so be it… 

I started this life with none of these hangups… habit learned, can be unlearned just as easy… but slipping off that slippery slope will be easy and discipline, yea I got it, but not much…. just being honest…

So tomorrow, no caffeine, do the supplements and inhaler and see if the heart race is on or off…. I expect it to be elevated after our walk… or my chores and exercising… but not after I get out of bed… 

I have a feeling the reason mine is up a little when I wake up, because I toss and turn the last couple hours in bed… and the thought of getting up any earlier, will traumatized me back to basic training days… just kidding…

I may have to stay up later than hubby, because I will still wake up at or before 5AM… always adjusting and finding the right fit to make life a little easier…

You know I can’t begin to count how many times I did stupid when I was young and I told myself, no big deal, you get old, you won’t give a rat’s ass…

Well guess what, you give more of a rat’s ass at my age, than I ever did at 21…. and that kids is a fact, that not giving a shit, has come back to haunt me… learn it now, so your old age is as much fun as your youth….

TimesUp #MeToo WhyIDidntTell

I Remember… Margie… who thought she would never see 40….

Sgt. USAF DAV