Experiment continues… part 3

No there is no part 2… just trying to keep things a little more organized so that I can reference stuff when I am working on this book thing…  I don’t know what to call it… story???

So today has been interesting… get a phone call out of the blue and my old provider had requested a hearing test, without consulting me… that sigh took a few seconds, because I breathe in instead of out… sigh…..

I have had problems with my ears since the Texas beating and death… the cold would make them hurt, headaches would make them hurt, loud noises made them hurt… get my drift… they have hurt since I died in Big Springs…

Now having a job in a dental clinic where you are exposed to 8 hours daily of high frequency devices that are no different from if you sat in a bar and listened to loud music… extended exposure to any loud noises can impact your hearing, which is why I will never understand these morons in vehicles, blasting so loud and with kids in the rigs with them… You really cannot fix stupid, you just can’t…

So, I have known since my military time about my ears and all the problems I mentioned… and I have written about going to bars for dancing and the only way I can deal with being in that environment, get drunk, so my ears do not bother me… not falling down drunk, just buzzed enough, to where the noise wasn’t an intrusion…

I have never been to a concert, concert… I have been to a couple of small shows and one of them, I left 15 minutes into it… I couldn’t take the noise…

By the time 1996 rolled around, I would get off an on ringing sound in my ears and it varied in frequency… but, within 4 years of being put on Levothyroxine…. the ringing became that tinnitus stuff and it was awful and just about drove me batty… but I also knew that the major surgery I had that same year, could have been the cause, because it was major, they cut me open hip to hip… and that anesthesia could have been the trigger for the ear noise…

By 1998, it was very annoying and I have had multiple ear tests done on my ears and I even wore masking ear devices, that really hurt to wear, but I was willing to try, and wore them for 2 years and gave up… in fact the last hearing test was done at the El Paso VA and I want to say it was before 2016, but can’t remember the specific time frame at the moment… Instant recall doesn’t work for me anymore… and I accept that…

Funny thing about this little confab…. the ringing in my ears has dropped dramatically since I quit taking the Levothyroxine… doesn’t mean anything, until it stops completely… It just means, that the drug could have been making it worse….

One thing I have told all my doctors when I first see them and ask about it to see if they will give me an answer and my last one just thought I grew extra heads… big sigh on that one… but I told them all, I can hear the blood running through my ears… Not all the time, just like with my heart beat and feeling that through my whole body… it just depends what frame of mind my brain is in… 

This is something I have experienced since I came out of the fog in Big Springs, Texas… in 1968, before we moved to Japan… After the beating on Japan, it got louder and I just learned to ignore it… and sometimes that takes great effort, so smoking a bowl will usually distract me from it now…

The point of all this, I have had issues with my ears, eyes, and head, since the Big Springs beating and death…

I honestly don’t know what to tell the professionals anymore, so many of them are smarter than me when it comes to my own body…. thinking about getting a set of flags and waving them in code, since that is what they seem to think I am talking in… Wonder if “Sheldon fun with flags is available”???

The last hearing test I had done, was extensive and thorough… I have excellent hearing, I have zero hearing loss…. I just can hear stuff that others can’t…. and because of that…

I am changing my name to Hermine Granger and joining Griffandor and plan to go to school any day when the letter arrives….

That is how ridiculous it is, when the doctor’s order tests without consulting the patient… remember that god complex I wrote about… yep… they all got it… so Hogwarts here I come…

TimesUp #MeToo WhyIDidntTell

I Remember… Margie… hating any loud noises and still does…

Sgt. USAF DAV