When Fear Walks With You… pg 8…

I have a love hate relationship with music… I love all genres… from Rock to Jazz to a little country and on occasion some classical…

Freda was into classical and Don was into Country….

My music was influenced at first by family, and after the Japan beating, I started selecting what I like to hear, that didn’t cause me discomfort…

As time passed the men in my life impacted those choices and 2 of my marriages definitely impacted my music choices and still do to this day… 

I have America playing in the background the album the History of America… so it’s obvious I prefer the music of the 60’s and 70’s…. Disco was okay, but not my favorite, even though I did perform a couple of shows to that music… we had so much fun….

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We performed to Barry Manilow “Copa Cabana” full on skit with guys doing the bar fight… This show was at the Officer’s Club at Vance AFB…. circa 1979…

As I listen to the music, when it first started, it gave me a jolt to my heart… it brought forth memories… I have been pushing myself out of my comfort zone of news and science channel and opening back up to the things I walked away from… only because the fear has faded… not gone, it may never be gone… but it doesn’t control me….

The music reminds me of days long gone, when my influence on my children had an impact and life took over and those lessons were gone in a flash…

It makes me look at myself in awe, because of what a child had to endure and still come out on top and have no regrets with the life she has lived… I made mistakes, but there is not a living creature on this planet who has not made mistakes… perfection we will never have, no matter how hard we try….

I know that the psychological part of the fear is something I have to take control of and never let it have a place in me again… it will always be there… and I will continue to make mistakes… 

But I will also continue to grow and as long as I do that… I will live with no regrets…

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I Remember… Margie… kept walking, when fear tried so hard to block the path….

Sgt. USAF DAV