When Fear Walks With You… pg 9…

It will surprise you what you fear… and your mind will feed that fear if you let it… and you will push reality away and become like the rest… religious…

I chose to stand up to my fear and not let it own me… am I totally free, no, I don’t think we are ever truly free… but we can own more of it, so that it does not own us…

I watched as the family acted out their christian behavior and behind closed doors it was malice, gossip and most of all judgement…

How petty and small their lives truly where and I couldn’t stomach being around them, because I judged… I watched and I gagged…

I told fear, that I didn’t need ancient text to tell me right from wrong…. I told fear, I didn’t need to worry about my soul… it was doing just fine as long as christians kept their claws out of it… they tried, oh my did they try….

I told fear, I wasn’t afraid of the truth and I welcomed it and embraced it and owned it… so that I could own fear….

Owning my fear, is the hardest task I have undertaken… every time I fail, I dust myself off and tell myself, you tried and you didn’t give in or give up… you keep trying…

Fear will always be a part of who I am, without fear, I can not grow and learn… It is fear that protected me, kept me safe and taught me how to not fear… Fear taught me the one thing I needed…

Fear is  a part of life, it will always walk with you, but will own you if you let it…

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I Remember… Margie… who stood up to the bully in our house…. Freda, mommy dearest…

Sgt. USAF DAV