High functioning memory ability….

Not something I really started putting out there to anyone, until after our visit to Mena in 1996… and Mike says it was probably about 5 or 6 years later, I really started letting people know…

“Lying to me was the dumbest thing you could do”….

I always catch people in lies… and I often wondered why I had that ability… after the trip to see the family in 96… you could say things just kind of fell into place and I have been working on things and memories ever since… It just took the murder of 26 people in Sutherland Springs, Texas… to trigger the cascade effect of my memories…

Confusion, holy crap has their been confusion and sometimes because of people outside my very small circle, filling my head up with their memories that I was part of, but their slant on that moment in time….

For Instance… I was supposed to stand up for a friend in the Air Force and the night before the wedding, we got beyond drunk… I was miserably sick and I barely made it out of my bed… Well her memory and mine differ and that is only because… I remember it vividly and when she contradicted my memory, I knew there would be no changing her mind on that memory… and I am so glad I did not stand up for her… my ex died in Aug and she became best friends with the new wife and they wanted my personal information for her to file a claim… talk about identity theft 101… needless to say, I didn’t get a christmas card this year… the fake friendship that never was is definitely gone… and for a good reason… You have sex, less than 10 feet from my kids!!! What planet do you live on??? Oh yea, christian…. just wow!!!  That was 36 years ago, the sex part… the death was last summer… 

Do I have a high functioning memory… Well let me ask you this, can you remember being a year old and actual memory that can be verified… I can…and Freda verified it…

Now is that because of the way I make memories or is it because I have a unique ability that tracks everything going on around me… came in handy when someone would lie or gossip about me… not for revenge, it just made it so I stepped away from that association without explaining myself… I wasn’t the one that lied or gossiped…

I only know that a shrink at El Paso thought I could have Edetic memory… and according to research, I fit the profile… but it comes back to, how and when I started making memories and with all the damage to my brain by multiple TBI’s and a couple severe TBI’s…I still hit a brick wall, just like in the movie TRON… where they zip and zoom all over the field, that is the way it feels in my brain, except like today where the cold has taken up residence… but when my brain is not foggy with snot…

I get a jolt out of the blue, just because of something on the news or the science channel or Mike & I are talking or I am playing with the dogs… or just doing chores…

These memories that I am trying to pin down so I can get on with this book…. sure make for some entertaining moments if we are not home when it happens… fortunately I just stop dead in my tracks in the store and start telling Mike what I saw or remembered…. now imagine me driving…. yep my eyes just got real wide with that thought…. you are safe, for now…

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I Remember… Margie… who still has some doubts, but is working her way through them… Truth Matters….

Sgt. USAF DAV