How I Wish I Could Remember…

I tell all the professionals I deal with, I learn by repetition, mostly… not 100%… keeping in mind that my brain was injured from a very early age during development….and I actually could recognize my areas of difficulty, some I put in place to protect myself and others, were the manifestation of the brain injuries and those are the ones that really cause me problems right now, well to a point…

Thanks to this little weird brain, I love computers, programming, anything to do with technology… yet, when a new application or program comes out that I want to get into, I find I lose interest and get bored and leave it and when I need it, I regret not pursuing the familiarization of the new software… even though I know, they are all operating in the same parameters and confines of programming, I allow it to confuse and that makes me less motivated to do the work I want to do… and now you see me as the puppy dog, chasing it’s tail… because that is exactly what it is…

When I saw the PT doc, he asked if I did yoga  and I used too, but it or the way I was doing it, did not motivate me to want to continue, and that was, because I saw no results from it… and that made me realize, what I just said about technology, I had allowed it to interrupt my life on numerous occasions… It really does sound like I never get anything done… and that is only true, when it comes to the task of writing this book or books…

I know that the stroke and brain bleed left me with damage, some of that, I may have learned over time to compensate for and most of the issues I acknowledged and have and did address…. the one I left sitting on its own in the time out corner… Motivation…

Motivation to do what I have always wanted… Write and tell Margies story… and it’s time to do just that… So I got on my fancy computer and ordered the software that will help me accomplish the goal I have started…

Telling Margies story… The software will give me the tools that I lack, because of the brain injury… as much as I want to do all this on my own and make it all mine… I need help, and I need help that won’t influence the words I put to paper… this is after all…

Margies Story…. just got a confirmation email about my neurology appointment… this week is going to be very informative… I hope…

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I Remember… Margie… who loved to play jacks…

Sgt. USAF DAV

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