VA Intrusion, finally on my terms…

When I was active duty and had patients of my own… and I worked at St. Mary’s hospital in Enid part-time… It took all I had to be in that environment and I really loved my job…

I just did not know about my stroke at 13 and I did not remember all the domestic violence and I did not remember my recovery from the near death in Big Springs, Texas…

Though I loved working with patients and helping them… I hated being around the environment of health care, because of what happened to me in Big Springs, Texas…. that trauma and never being told by Freda or Don or Auntie or Grandmother and most of lied to by sister and brother…

I am amazed I treated my patients so gently… but I really dislike doctors and nurses…

Now that I have regained most of my memories… I can look back at the last 42 years of conflict with my own health care and the battle to get to this very point in time…

Taking control of my health care and putting the VA in the position it should have always been in… helping with my health care, NOT CONTROLLING IT!!!

I don’t know what dumb ass in congress screwed everything up… you would have to go back and look at who sat on the VA committee over the last 40 years and you will find your culprit… but they had absolutely no clue about health care and they have screwed it up so bad… I hate to say it, but this may just be one thing Trump did get right… start shutting down the VA health care system and giving back control of our health care to us, the patient… because what they have had in place is what got a patient like me and so many others lost in the system and no say over our care…

I put an end to that, when I fired my primary… took full use of the system with the 40 mile rule for VA facilities and I continue to be the one in control of my health care, now…

Since quitting the Levothyroxine drug, after 27 years of not being on the right dose and finally sent into toxic shock issues… I quit the drug… all of the symptoms I was having that scared the hell out of me, could have been related to my stroke and brain bleed… but until the MRI & MRA ruled those out… I could not safely quit the thyroid medication….

It has been over 20 days since I quit the drug… and the following issues are not present any longer…. and they had been going on and escalated to the point of fear and panic…

1… cognitive issues… gone…

2… motor skill issues… gone…

3… headaches that were round robin… from lobe to lobe… gone…

4… kaleidoscope vision in right eye… gone…

5… blurry vision… gone… but I do have to use eye drops and remember to blink more often…

6… dizziness… gone…

7…. indigestion and having to take antacids daily… gone….

8… excessive tachycardia…. gone… just its normal behavior I had before I started thyroid meds 27 years ago…

9… cranky, Mike says it’s still there, but not at the level of when I was on the thyroid drug daily… so that may take a little more time to settle down 100%… he’s only known me for 25 years… and the drug was in my system for 2 years when we married… and I read it takes about a month for the medication to be gone, but not 100% sure on that statistic….

10… I haven’t yelled at a banger as they drive into my home with their loud stereo system in a clunker… but drug or no drug, these dumb ass’s aren’t going to get away with it forever and me not pipe up… that’s just my nature and changing for these dumb assholes will never happen…

All I have tried to do since I went active duty in 77… get answers about my health care and have a say… and not having to use a VA facility that has me answer questions that have nothing to do with my health care and having to put up with federal employees who are either veterans or civilians who have never had contact with veterans… give their personal opinion and put it in my records which again, has nothing to do with my health care and all about their job security and stupid personal opinion…. neither of which I am paying for…

I am paying for HEALTH CARE!!!!!

So taking back control of my health care, knowing exactly why I am getting health care and not made up bull shit that employees or civilian contract doctors put in my medical records…..

Getting a doctor to finally listen in 2017 was 99% of the battle to get my health care taken care of… but the doctor still has issues and did not listen and did not communicate according to the contract… DO NO HARM… and not listening is doing harm….so I fired that doctor… this is my health care, not theirs….

My experiment with the thyroid drug has proven, that I should not be on it… that the neurology part of this thyroid issue was never addressed and though I have no clue if this is rare or normal for people with as many traumatic brain injuries or if just one injury…. but to be good health care providers… you got to listen to the patient and not have the god syndrome in health care… degrees and licenses are only good, if you use your brains and most of all you listen….

My next primary provider will be my sounding board for my health care… not my decider in my health care… as with the PT doctor or the Neurology doctor or the Eye doctors…. I am hiring them to answer my questions and to give me suggestions as to the direction I should take my health care… they are being paid for a service… not to play mommy or daddy and most of not to play a god who makes my life and death choices… this is my life… not theirs….

If I had ever been listended too, I would have gotten my answer in 1978, when all the symptoms went into overdrive from the traumatic brain injuries the Air Force covered up at Webb AFB, Big Springs, Texas… 1967… so Sheppard AFB in 1982 decided my life.. so they could cover up the rapes and attempted murder at Vance AFB… nothing like men in power protecting men in power…. sounds like FOX news…lol

TimesUp #MeToo WhyIDidntTell

I Remember… Margie… before the doctors at Webb AFB, made life altering decisions for a 13-year-old in 1967…

Sgt. USAF DAV