The brain said no, I disagreed…

In 2017, one of our adult grand daughters came to Hawaii to check it out and see if this was a place she wanted to live… she went home 6 weeks later… Island living is not for everyone…

One of the moments in time when she was here that stuck in my brain… She asked me if I could do any of the braiding for hair and I replied no… now if I was a suspicious person, I would have thought, okay grandma, does not want to spend time with me…

4 months later I got my memories back…. and 6 months after that date, I knew I had suffered a stroke when I was a kid… 

Now I knew why doing braids was difficult for me…. It took both hands and it took abstract thinking… not something I am always good with…

Found that out, when the PT person had me do an exercise with my left and right arms… Right, no problem, left, the brain could not conceive quickly what the right had done… a figure 8 movement….

When at PT yesterday, he had me go through stuff that helped my right side of the brain connect more readily with the left side of my body… the side impacted by the stroke on the right side of my brain… a little progress and that is all I can hope for this long after the damage was done…

It is also my understanding, that because I was only 13 years old when the stroke happened and around 14 or 15 when the brain bleed happened… and I was so very active all my life, until the surgeon put me down for 6 straight months last year, is why I was able to go through life, until a road block got put in my way… last years surgery….

Still wrapping my head around the fact mommy is still living and so is sister and they are as silent as the grave…

Fear… what a way to live life… full of fear… I did for a while…

Than I Remembered…. I can do simple braids, but I have to focus on the task… all because of a stroke at 13, a lasting gift from my daddy….

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I Remember… Margie… who loves science….

Sgt. USAF DAV