Vivid nightmares….

It has been a while since I have had a vivid nightmare…. Not even when I was freaking out over the medical side of this journey, did I have nightmares like last night…

This was different… I was in the nightmare… Instead of me seeing the memory from a detached view…

Last night I was in the nightmare and I was living it… 

Can I remember much… the fact I remember being the center of that nightmare, that speaks volumes… It’s a memory coming back and one that I have no conscious memory of…

It’s a new memory…

This is where it gets rough, in terms of understanding what I see… I have to be sure that it is a real memory, and not a dream of my imagination… though I will be the first to admit… I don’t have that big of an imagination… I am too literal…

I woke up tired, but, I remembered… I remember being the center of the nightmare…

Maybe this diary outline is doing some good… I am not allowing myself to-day dream, instead, I am making myself stay in the time period of 1968 to 1954…. 14 years of my life, that are so very important to me… it’s putting back in place the lost limb I lost, because of brain injury…

I will just have to sit back and enjoy the magic carpet ride and see what comes of it or where it takes me…

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I Remember… Margie… who loved watching Omaha’s Wild kingdom on Sunday night…

Sgt. USAF DAV