Moments stolen by one beating…

For the longest time I could not figure out why I was not able to do certain things…

Such as… 

1… Let my grand kids comb my hair….

2… Get on my hands and knees and play with my kids or grand kids….

My scalp has been tender since the “TV host interview beating”…. around age 6… this also tells me of another memory before that beating and mommy hit me upside my head with a hair brush…. as other memories come forward… my head was used as a bull’s eye for abuse for the first 6 years of life and a target after that age…

As for getting on my hands and knees… The picture taken after the same beating around age 6 with a yard stick… my knees are badly swollen in that picture…

By the time I went active duty in 77, which is about 17 years after the beating… I had cortisone injected in the left knee when I got to Vance AFB… so I already showed signs of arthritis by the time I was 23….

To this day, I can not get on my knees without padding and If I do push ups and use my knees on the floor, I am so screwed for about a week of pain and issues with those knees…

The PT kid did an electronic pulse thing on my knee last week and it’s letting me know it’s there after being on the elliptical…

I am pushing myself to accept, every time I have a physical issue, look at it and go back to when the issue was caused… most are directly related to domestic violence and all before the age of 18… 

I can count on one hand the issues related to just living life and injuries I received when saving a life or when I did stupid, when drunk and always to myself… gave up that liquid gold a few years back and do not miss it… but my injuries as an adult… I can count on one hand…

So much of my life experiences stolen because of one beating at age 6… all because I told the truth… not the christian truth, which is always a lie…

Just honest words that did not hide the truth…

so much stolen, because of honesty…

too bad christians will never know what truth and light really are… they worship a human god… Jeez, I just threw up in my mouth… time for a bowl…

TimesUp #MeToo WhyIDidntTell

I Remember… Margie… who was lied to about god…. he was born human and human is what he died as… a fake news god…

Sgt. USAF DAV