Change happens….

Change, it happens, to all of us… including those that take the psycho path road… now a fly on the wall of those brains would be more than just eye-opening…

I can continue to butt my head against that brick wall or I can change… not on the cellular level… just in my thought process…

Every person I walk past, will never know the hell I lived my first 18 years on this earth or the hell I lived for 64 years trying to get answers…

No, every person I walk past will not imprint on me, nor I on them… we all have our own lives and frankly, taking time out of yours for someone elses… has its challenges and rewards… but mostly we are all wrapped up in our own little worlds… 

No one is going to change for me and I have no desire to change for anyone else, so stalemate…

There are things I want out of my next few decades of life and if I am not willing to compromise my desires… not give them up, just compromise… I will never know if those desires are achievable…

I can not expect anyone to change, just because I found out Dec 26, 2018 I suffered a stroke at 13 years of age… 50 years ago I had a stroke and I never knew… until last summer and if you read the blog, you know why I say this, I was down by surgeons orders and that is when I discovered how weak my left side was, 6 months later and 2 MRI’s, we know my memory of Big Springs, Texas and death are accurate…

It’s a lot for me to digest, accept into who I am and acknowledge the crimes done against me… It’s a lot to integrate into my waking mind…

Our move in a few months will be a profound change and interesting journey… sad so many will never get to participate…

All because they could not change…

TimesUp #MeToo WhyIDidntTell

I Remember… Margie… before she changed…

Sgt. USAF DAV