Come on sunshine…

Not my first time living on an island… but, it is my first time with nearly 2 straight years of rain and not much sun… even when the lava flow was happening and we had unstable weather created by the eruption… it stayed wet… not sure I am going to miss this part of my Hawaii experience…

We have met some very nice people and some not so nice…  we experienced bigotry and we experienced acceptance, and that is an experience we will greet, no matter the place we live… it’s humans, being human… maybe someday we will all be enlightened… 

The day is gloomy but it started with laughter… that seems to be the norm any more… no cranky, bitchy mornings… just happy I woke up…

We have company coming in a few weeks… we intend to go out and explore the island and take lots of pictures and video… perfect time before hurricane season and it getting hot… our UV is usually at 12 by May, so you burn quickly…

As we have no more request for visiting… we are going to start the break down process and packing… hoping to get the house on the market by June… oh the time will flash by as if going over Niagra falls…. so much to do, it makes me wonder how I will physically and mentally deal with the stress… should be a good test of how far I have come, since waking up… 16 months on March 7th… I got my memories back… what a ride…

Waiting for that aha moment on how to start the book…. so much research still left to get done and now a move in less than 6 months… wow… we want to look at the west coast of Washington state… we might get lucky and find what we want on water in our price range, but I have my doubts… I got a feeling it will be the east side of the state… time will tell…

Trying to get my hormones in line with my desires and the hand away from the mouth… so lots of healthy food in the house and no junk…. elliptical… made it 6 1/2 minutes non stop… It is so obvious I had a stroke, but never recognized it until last summer… that is how much a TBI can take from you… 50 years of memories and it took a shooter in Sutherland springs, Texas to trigger my repressed memories… 26 people died and I woke up… still gives me chicken skin as they say here on Hawaii…

Much to do this day… we may have more reliable internet, but it really does not work much better than dial-up… so do not miss those days… but it is better than what we had…

I still marvel at the brain changes, since the memories came back… I lived a hell, not of my making and all mom and sister had to do… tell me… I will never understand christians… they are the biggest bullies on the block and the worst criminals… and we allow it…. just wow… I do hope the remainder of their days on earth are exactly what they deserve… Even I can not wish what happened to me on anyone, including them… I am just a human that was in the wrong place at the wrong time….

Not anymore….

TimesUp #MeToo WhyIDidntTell

I Remember… Margie… and her desire to escape to her world…

Sgt. USAF DAV