Home… Safe & Sound???

At one time, what face book did, to censor me, would have set me off and it would have been a day or two of bitching….

My previous post and what I put back on face book took all of about 30 minutes… weather interrupted the signal…

Paranoia, I knew before I started Levothyroxine, I didn’t have paranoia like I have for the last couple of decades… Who knew 1 tiny little man-made drug could take so much???

Never again… even with the weight gain, which I expected and exercise will control that… but I will never take thyroid medication again…

By doctors not listening to me for the last few decades, I had to figure it out… 

It will take a few months to get my body back on an even footing with diet, exercise and no medication… but I am doing all the right things and the brain is very clear and no confusion…

Well, not 100% clear… Big Island opened its first medical marijuana store and we got some… it’s good… did great with the pain until PT turned on my left leg… but that is expected with what they are trying to accomplish… PT that is not the pot store…

I also notice the chemical change in the brain and the thought process, still goes in directions I don’t appreciate, but I turn it off and it gets back to business…. I address what ever it is…

As for depression… the level is what I would call mild… what I have felt since Big Springs, Texas… so I think that means that the stroke is the cause of the depression and it is physical,  not psychological… because honest, I’m not depressed… but my brain says I am… so there goes the battle of the Margie and Maggi issue….

It’s part of my life and has been now,  jeez,  going on 42 years, don’t think anything is going to change now…

There are other nuances of brain chemical changes… and I will seek more help, after we get moved home and settled… hypnosis is the way I think I will get the memories back that I am blocking… I know they are there, it’s just opening them… maybe a trigger will come along… it’s going to be a stressful year…. anything could happen…

As I finish, the reason I sat down to write, because of FB blocking my post… and I had forgotten that, until I thought, why am I writing??? yep good weed…

TimesUp #MeToo WhyIDidntTell

I Remember… Margie… always being yelled at…

Sgt. USAF DAV