PTSD and the fight to keep your soul out of the fanatics hands…

Is it possible to live in conjunction with PTSD and still thrive???

I would have to say yes… I have done it my whole life…

Lately the mind and body feel like they are living together, instead of fighting each other… So many decades of that battle and all that knowledge sits inside people who are living and, who are afraid to come forward and tell me exactly what happened… they did this to a 13-year-old child… actually I have to go back further… It really all did start with the TV host interview… at age 5…

From age 5 till now… I have fought to get answers… unfortunately some questions that have answers will be denied to me by the living and their god… insanity at it’s best…

Some may come back to me… It’s beyond strange or twilight zone… Hypnosis should be a fun ride…

I can account for all of my life, except the first 17 years… I have gaps… Did the stroke take some in 67 or did the brain bleed on Japan in 68 take them, or did the final blow on Okinawa finish the job…

Still too early to know that answer… my dream patterns are changing and I know that intimately… I have always dreamed… I have never not dreamed… but those were not dreams, they were memories… some no longer bother me, in the sense of my sleep…

Psychologically, I think this will always be a journey to reconcile what can not be reconciled… and at some point in time I will come to accept and move on… I know, I have done it before and it just becomes a memory and a file in my brain with no power… 

Knowledge is power in my case… knowing my medical issues and what is related to domestic violence, which 98% of my body issues are… helped me get to a point where I can address the mental side and the damage done by the abuse and cover up…

When the living refuse to help the victim they created… 

There is your gods in America and we have millions… and they hide behind those laws that protect their religion…

Who is protecting us from them???

TimesUp #MeToo WhyIDidntTell

I Remember… Margie… who learned to hide her feelings at 5 years old…

Sgt. USAF DAV