I Just Want To Be….. Me………

From my first memories till now, people have wanted me to be what they wanted…

You know, Trump wants to think he is a ladies’ man, when in reality, the guy is a total sleaze… and gold diggers are a dime a dozen… but I doubt they started out as gold diggers… but at some point in time, they decided, instead of being themselves… they would make themselves over to please someone else… we all do it to some extent… especially those that believe in a god and when Freda could not mold me into a mini me of her, she chose another target….

From the first brain injury at 5 years old to the last brain injury at 17 years old at the hands of my parents, Don & Freda…. my brain was being beaten into submission, or so they thought… when in reality… it escaped long ago…. oh how I wonder what life would have been, if not for the stroke and brain bleed… how much could I have contributed…. I have saved more than one life in my time… how many more, I will never know… medicine was my choice of study… now I get why It was so difficult…

I just want to be me… I want to live my life…. I am tired of being insulted, yelled at and disrespected by people who have no right, nor will they ever… and every time they do it… we step back a little further… be it because they bully us with their religion or because they think blood is thicker than water… regardless, the behavior is not tolerated by us… and we chose when to open and close the door…

The Cougar Creek property is so appealing to both Mike and I… We have both died… we both know there is nothing after death and all we want, is to live life on our terms and not have to worry about anyone’s feelings but our own… 

I stated many times over the last year, that the actions that people display, play a big part in our choices…. being self-aware is more difficult than you can imagine and the few I know who think they are, have such a long way to go….

We may not succeed in our desires that we have set forth, maybe not to the extent cougar creek will give us… but to make another choice… has to be solely on us….

We respect everyone’s right to believe, or chase what ever dream or god you chose….

You do not, however, have a right to push your beliefs into our lives…. remember, it is a two-way sword you are playing with… stubbornness, can lead to loneliness…. please leave your religion for your world and keep it out of ours… but we know you won’t and that is the cross we have to bear…. because of…..

Your arrogance and ignorance and mental illness….

TimesUp #MeToo WhyIDidntTell

I Remember… Margie… who knew the religious were self-righteous, mentally ill, even as they, stole, lied, cheated, raped and murdered….but the man-made god will forgive them… you really can not fix stupid…just look at Trump….who could not remember a thing when questioned, but states repeatedly how smart he is???… OMGoodness…lol

Sgt. USAF DAV