Brain chemical reaction has changed…edited

Okay call me total geek, but, when you live the science, you can’t help but fall in love with the science…

What I used to experience, regardless of the moment in time… be it the birth of my child, or the day I got married or the day I entered the military… the chemical reaction and the emotional reactions were all the same… Fight or Flight….

Not a real healthy way to live… but since mommy dearest never told me about all the brain injuries and stroke and near death, all before I was 15 years old, it now makes sense why my brain was in that mode…

Ya know, you have no idea how good it feels to feel the normal you knew was always there, you just didn’t know how to reach it…

When the shooter in Sutherland Springs, Texas murdered so many people and it got me to thinking of Big Springs, Texas, which was a place I avoided at all cost…

Once I crossed that threshold and took control of my PTSD or at least what I considered control at the time… once that trigger started the story in action… there was no turning back… though many times I wanted too…

Many times I wanted to deny the abuse, the cruelty, the lies, the hate, the malice, the envy, the greed and most of all the mental illness… no matter how I look at this story, it comes back to the choices the principal players took and the lasting damage they left in and on my body…

All to make me believe in a god that they made up…. Socialized religion has destroyed more lives than any war ever… because most of those wars are based on fictional characters and superstition, instead of science and reality….

The Bone Scans, the MRI’s & MRA’s, the Neurology and the Psychology do not lie… 

The only reason I live with constant non-stop pain…

Christians… they thought the evidence would be buried forever in my brain that was damaged…. 

They were so wrong to leave the body of evidence in plain sight…

Me…

TimesUp #MeToo WhyIDidntTell, because I didn’t want to experience what Ford and Hill did, the original assaults by men were enough…

I Remember… Margie… who really never forgot…

Sgt. USAF DAV