Overload and only small meltdown… PTSD is loosing…

Get up this morning and all kinds of paperwork to deal with for selling and printing out the flyers the realtor did… and I am taking my time puttering around, because we only been on MLS less than 12 hours….

No sooner did I think that thought and the realtor asks if we can show the house this morning… big ASS wide-eyed emojis!!!! True Story…

So we have spent the last hour and a half, polishing, shinning, moving, hiding, cleaning and we are so thrilled we can’t quit grinning… this is the way the Las Cruces property went… sold in 1 hour after the realtor put the sign up…

Yesterday the doc wanted to put me on thyroid med and start with the highest dosage… not in my life time… poor lady is fighting stage 4 cancer, simply stated, with my PTSD motor mouth, I would get tested again after our move and seek help if needed, but declined the thyroid medication… I mean come on, I was on the next to the last dosage they give when I quit the drug and put me on the strongest dosage… last fall would be the pre-cursor to the end of my life if I went back on thyroid medication… this is more complicated than the regular MD understands and I intend to seek the proper specialist after we get home… but I do feel fine and the weight is coming back off… big smiling emoji…

Right now, we have no house to buy, if our 2nd choice is not available… so it looks like we will pick up a 5th wheel when we get back, so we have something to live in while we look for our final home… oh yea, tiny living… with dogs…. laughing emoji….

The day is grey and wet, house is closed so the de-humidifier or AC can dry us out… you get tired of feeling like a wet sponge sometimes….

Sleep is good, and no dreaming right now, but I may just be too tired to go there…. we are busy daily and after today’s wake up about our house and the noticeable interest with a showing in an hour… got the feeling I am going to fall into bed tired every night, until we get an accepted offer and we are off the market….

I am excited to go home… we sent the most gorgeous blanket for our new great-grandson who is Japanese, Native & Hawaiian, his momma is a gorgeous petite thing, so her son will be one handsome dude… not that I am prejudice…

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Time to relax before the realtor and buyer get here… I do hope we get an offer, so we can stop showing it… but, I am happy with how I handled the stress, I can do better… but I got to quit beating myself up too…. I am trying and that is all that does matter…

TimesUp #MeToo WhyIDidntTell because of how Ford and Hill were treated…

I Remember… Margie… who never saw your color, just your light…

Sgt. USAF DAV