Neuropathy episode….ongoing…

I wrote a couple of days ago about having an autonomic neuropathy episode… and I think it is still going on…

I have learned with the understanding of psychology and the neurological impact the stroke and TIA (brain bleed) had on my personality and other behavioral patterns… I am learning to recognize the pattern of the connection with the neuropathy and my own behavior and just wow… I mean for real… WOW!!!

The pattern of the head pain, sweating, nausea, pain beyond child-birth, parts of the body not responding and not functioning… it all finally makes sense… not thrilled about it, but at least, now I know when the symptoms start, behavior will follow… 

Now can I change that pattern of response, I already did… when the outburst happened, I backtracked the symptoms and found the cause… 

Knowing the trigger that is going to cause the agitation, gives you power over the brains reaction…. and instead of the neuropathy having control… you get to own it… 

You still have the meltdown symptoms and you are left exhausted as if you did a 20 K marathon… just don’t give in… the depression that comes with the end of the autonomic part is recognizable and I think controllable… or at least I hope so…

Autonomic is more complicated than the medical side sees it and it involves a whole hell of a lot more issues than I found documented… but I got to remember, mine issues are man-made caused…

I was beaten to death by my parents…!!! I will never understand the need to hide behind the label christian… they never own any behavior in their lives… because their man-made god will forgive them… holy crap on a cracker you can’t fix stupid… that is today’s struggle, the depression from the episode that started a few days ago… been happening since I was a little child… jeez, did they ever beat that poor kid…

TimesUp #MeToo WhyIDidntTell because you wouldn’t listen…

I Remember… Margie, before the abuse…

Sgt. USAF DAV