Will I Ever Have Peace???

The answer to that question is easy… Yes…

I know from experience and how I trained my edetic memory ability to handle all the ugly of the world and I get the same response from those who have contact with me… 

“They like my positive attitude”… and in a way I see the glass half full, with the opportunity to fill it up more…

It is, like all things in life, not easy to wrap your head around abuse and death like I sustained… and it gives me no solace to think of those girls held captive for years… or the Riverside 12, or the little girl they have not found yet, but who’s neck is likely broken or she died from head trauma…. 

When YOU lived it, you can speculate what they will do and rarely be wrong… and there in is my aha moment on writing the book…  I know how to get into the heads of the players that beat a child to death and proceeded to live their lives as if nothing happened…

“We were told she would not remember anything”… not sure if that is a true memory… still a little chaos, it has not been 2 years since I got my memories back… still much more road to travel to remember it all….

And I dreamed last night… Yesterday showed me I still have a little anger left and I know the psychology part of it, is normal… as I said I will have peace…

One time a few years back I told Peggy I would not be over till both Don and Freda were dead… Don passed in 2006 and got the death he deserved… Freda is still breathing and not talking……………… life will be the judge, and I wait…. they may not tell me when she dies, but I will know…

I don’t believe in man-made gods… I believe in nature and our true form, made from the stars… our energy is what we all carry and give off… I have always felt hers… her hatred has grown, just like with Darth Vader… her hatred has grown… because…

I Remember…..

TimesUp #MeToo WhyIDidntTell, I tried and Spokane news station had zero interest, not sensational enough….

I Remember Margie, who hated watching TV after the beating at 5…but was intrigued…

Sgt. USAF DAV