Learning new… Luminess air…

Not a big makeup fan…but I wanted to try a new thing an this air brush sounded challenging with my hands an arms, top that vision issue in the mix…I really know how to frustrate myself….

First time I tried, my arm went limp…had to teach it a new way of holding something without stressing all the damages, and had to remind myself how good it is for the brain to learn new…an a magnifying mirror helped…

Once I went outside an had Mike look, he said it looked good, natural, which is my goal… no pancake makeup for me, just makes the ole wrinkles show more…

Accomplished yet, no it will take me doing it a few weeks to get the process imprinted in my memory, so it becomes natural for me…

Now if I can figure out the WP site on the PC, frustration will take a back seat an progress will continue…

I look in those eyes an see the little 5 year old after the TV interview beating….

I see the broken finger then an see it still broken 60 years later….

Depression has had a hold, fatigue is much an excitement is building an smoke alarms went off at midnight an I got angry for a few seconds… sleep was and is lacking, but..

I refuse to beat myself up for trying… yet I did…

Frustration is here, though not the boss…Figured out the alarms an got enjoyment out of putting on war paint…. always learning, growing an trying… all any of us can do…

TimesUp #MeTo WhyIDidntTell because false gods an delusional believers out number the sane…

I Remember Margie, who has never known a pain free day, ever…

Sgt USAF DAV

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