Remembering stopped the “Passive/Aggressive”???

Like I said before, I got 100% from the VA, because I should have met a medical board, but the reputation of the base was more important… so the Air Force cooked up the above diagnosis… only one problem… so far the VA, as far back as 1997… those test results say PTSD……

Now Mike will tell ya, in 98 when the doc writes in my VA records about the PTSD and talking to me, I got no clue what Rubio was talking about… doesn’t mean the conversation didn’t happen, but it would have been face to face and I have no such memory… quirky this Edetic junk…. so we will go with I did not know until 2010 VA Appeal and I get a copy of the test results and it says the shrink says I got PTSD… again, no contact with mental health, just a copy of the evaluation and test results…. now that is when the brain went… wait one damn minute!!!!

2010 I stood in Freda’s kitchen I help pay for and told her I was missing memory and the woman went white and refused to make eye contact…. Check mate….

Psych eval that same year, read the results and I think it was 2014 when I filed the appeal and got a copy of the PTSD label… so 5 years I have known about the PTSD, but not why for 3 of those years….

Getting my memories back after those 26 innocents were killed in Sutherland has made all the difference…

Getting the levothyroxine out of my body was the other gift I gave myself… and I do feel so much better, especially in the brain and it’s behavior…

Wow so much I have remembered and so little of it good… I have caught myself going back to the Japan beating and remembering, how I knew I could force my brain in another direction, so I could cope… till old enough to leave home… only problem… couple more blows screwed that up…..I have been playing catch up the last 20 months and what a ride it has been….

There are days the emotion inside me is high, because I remembered something during the night or had a waking memory play by…. other days, I just absorb, what the brain is allowing me to remember…. I really do have more Neuro questions than answers, that are beyond the text book….and only I can answer….

My frustration with my health care boiled over today… the anti biotic worked for my mouth, but not my kidney’s…. and I could not articulate that to the dental clinic… so if they call again, Mike will take it from there… but first time since Dec the side of my face doesn’t feel weird, only way to explain it… My head was Freda’s favorite target…. makes me proud of her and her god…

Call into my primary to give them the heads up… need something different for this infection… so a new drug or stronger dose will be ordered… no one can tell me I am not feeling Kidney & Bladder pain… fuck with the tooth all they want, that is under Oahu VA control, the people who play god!!!… but at least my doctor listened…. which is thru Tri West!!!

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Sgt. USAF DAV I Remember… Margie…