Neuropathy, NOT Fibromyalgia….

When my younger brother David told me he had Fibromyalgia, I was just a little perplexed… I had been diagnoised in 98 by the VA Rheumatologist and I thought at that time the specialist got it wrong and he did… Sorry Dr. Sheer, but you were way off base and since my brother told me about the FMS, he has told me he is bi-polar… Again… the doctors have it wrong and here is why… are you ready Freda, your secret is about to be laid wide open, to a point… always keep assholes in suspense, always… and they be true assholes…

The reason my brother does not have fibromyalgia or bi-polar… same reason Peggy needs help… Trauma, psychological and physical trauma and Peggy never got hit, so just her head she messed up herself from guilt… but Davids… much like Richards… they were prime targets for abuse, Don loved to beat on his kids, Freda couldn’t do much after we got bigger than her, except verbal abuse… go figure, good christian on that note….

The boys witnessed the same thing that Larry and I witnessed and that is why Larry was so very happy to see the sis, he saw die… David saw it, Richard saw it, Peggy saw it, Don and Freda did it….. would freak you out too if you were just 6 years old, which David was… we had a bond once… Freda ended that too, just like she did with Peggy and not a damn thing I can do, because they bought into the god syndrome… mental illness at it’s best….

My siblings no more have mental disease such as bi-polar anymore than I have a personality disorder…. PTSD post traumatic stress memory disorder…from repressed memories and Freda, oh lordy as they say, she is playing her kids till she dies, just to keep a secret that never was… okay, after saying that, the woman is mentally ill… just wow that you would do that to your own kids for a secret about sex!!! You can’t fix stupid, Amazon, on back order…. just wow…

The reason I know I am right and the shrinks and doctors my siblings are seeing are getting it wrong… they don’t remember… just like me, they blocked it out… pretty horrific to watch your mother and father beat your 2 oldest siblings to death…. makes me hurt for the Riverside 12… hope they are doing well and thriving… I know my siblings are not….

I saw the writing on the wall on Okinawa and Freda has gone out of her way to insure I was not part of the family dynamic.. that was 1972…. you have no clue how many reunions I never was told about… she is one twisted whack-a-doodle…

Sleep the last couple of nights has been filled with violence and my writing reflects it and the anger that comes with it….

Frustration about what I have no control, the housing market and knowledge that the house has buyers, just not at this price and with everything else happening, that’s not bad for the time being…. and just maybe I can get Mike to go play golf and have fun, instead of working on this place… it looks good, now it’s about maintenance….

The day is hot, and muggy, the street quiet, though on occasion you see someone drive by with their flags flying… lots of support for the demonstrators… me, I just don’t get it, so what ever makes ya happy…

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Sgt. USAF DAV I Remember… Margie and if my sibling just would, this would all come to an end… hope springs eternal…