Short Term Memory Hiccup… quick video of the squall that hit us…edited…

The train left the building without me again… when I tried earlier to get into Word Press and had to go through the sign in crap, and hunt for my phone… didn’t have to do that on the Ipad this morning, but on the computer… yep, so you get why It’s just a little weird, when one device, on the same WiFi does not have to sign in and another device does??? and I did not change any setting’s power anything down or reset anything… this is all at their end and it has gotten to feel personal… thus the early rant… and you can’t just click on the arrow to go back to your previous page, you have to go to the menu icons and chose from that spot… so, impressed with Word Press, NOT…. and that is a true story…

As for the hiccup, it’s expected when I smoke pot, duh… but all the other times… it leaves me clues as to why it happens… clues I didn’t recognize before, but I been doing research when my eyes let me and the last 60 years of symptoms finally are starting to make sense… and all because a christian woman wanted control over what she could never have…

Me…

Plan to be paticular about the doctors they send me too… I have choices and I will be talking to PT kids, they live here, this is home and they know the ones I should really see… thus going back to see them, they did more for me than any specialist… and who knew PT was that important… I do now….

Doc pulled blood for my thyroid test, to see if my levels have come down and if the SeriVital HGH is doing it’s job, they should have come back down…

It is the only thing I have ever taken that had an impact on my thyroid… and that is why I think the hipocampus was impacted by all the beatings and being dropped on my head from the top bunk for a year or two… people think kids can’t get concusions from that, oh yes they can and the occipital part of my skull is extra thick… that was back in the day when the Air Force was doing lots of bone scans and the skull changed size in between scans… I was in my early 30’s, less than 20 years after the major brain injury… they thought I had Paget’s… scary… but were wrong….

What people don’t get about head injuries… the first 20 years, if yours is like mine, your life is not your own… if you have no clue about the injuries… and my life was not my own… it took until Nov 7, 2017 for me to get my life back… 50 years after the Texas near death and stroke… wow, only because no one ever told me what happened… it was all about dad getting his military retirement and after his death… Freda getting VA….

talk about throwing you under the bus for money… these 2 christians did exactly that… and she now lives off the fruits of my labor on her application for survivor benefits… dad was 10% DAV when he died, I won him 100% after death… yep I am that good… knowledge will always give you power….

When the short term farts on me like this morning, I don’t waste time looking for the thought… something I accepted as a child after the boob beating… 8 years old and another major head injury… wow those two were beyond sick they are twisted… either the memory or thought will come back around or it’s gone for good… something I am used to, though at one time it made dementia look like that was it and we know it’s not… MRI & MRA a few months back….

We just had a squall hit and lost internet and of course word press was not auto saving and the rest of this blog is gone, along with the thoughts that came with it… honestly how do companies take our money, give us crappy service and we just bend over and ask for more????

pre storm weather…

Well I saved it, on the Ipad and can not do a damn thing with the video… so I go get on the computer and I have to sign in??? I NEVER SIGNED OUT!!!!!

So over this bull shit… but than again it could very well be the weather, but if that was the case, why didn’t I have to sign in on the Ipad at all???? See, paranoia, not… screwed up algorythm likely… if its not human error on my end… it definitely is at theirs…. doubt if tech will get better, it will be about who is allowed and who is not… that is white bull shit to its core…

Enough rant… no clue what else I wrote about the memory thing…

Sgt. USAF DAV I Remember… Margie… and I will never forget those 2 Lt’s that raped her… or the house… Enid, Oklahoma….

TimesUp #MeToo WhyIDidntTell

I got mom full VA long before the VA stremlined the Agent Orange process, it took a couple years…