Suicide… I never tried… edited…

Watching the story about the latest Kennedy tragedy and when you grew up listening about that family, you turn the page… they are no different from you or me… just more money…. but the suicide issue got me to thinking about something Freda said and I never forgot it…

Back in 2000, before we left little old Omak… I had been having one problem after another health wise and I kept asking Freda questions about my childhood and you got it… I got nothing but lies… which is very normal for people who say they are chrisitan…lying is the norm, not truth…lying…

Freda made the comment to me, “don’t do anything stupid”… as I hung up the phone in 2000 after that conversation I thought, what the hell was that suppose to mean????

I have NEVER tried to take my life…. NEVER!!!! and the brain went into over drive and it got filed away, knowing that someday the importance of that statement would make it’s self known…

Trusting mommy dearest is something I HAVE NEVER DONE….. true story… once a viper, always a viper and she is still one nasty viper… but so are most christians….

I realized she was setting me up as a cover story down the road, in case I… you got it, remembered….. she just didn’t expect us to move to Mena in 2003 and people would get to know me and not the stories and lies she had spread… but hints were dropped about Freda’s lies… oh, they gave me so much evidence….

When I came across the picture in Fredas box and it showed the “Hand Prints on my neck”… the “Don’t do anything stupid conversation came to mind”… she was covering her tracks and protecting the person who did this too me…

Fighting through the chaos of TIA’s… which explains the abnormal brain wave…. I think… is difficult…

If I hadn’t been born with this Edetic memory ability…. I have a bad feeling that suicide would have been an easy reach, just because Freda would have pushed me in that direction….

For a woman with no education, her intelligence is up there and it makes me wonder, why??? and I think back to those records I found where her momma dumped her and her brother in an orphange comes to mind… and then I bend over and get my own head out of my ass… this is about one thing and one thing only, just like the Kennedy suicide….

Choices….

Freda chose to do what she did and no amount of lying will change the physical evidence…. My Body…

the young Kennedy… same scenario… life is and always will be about choices… as long as christians are not in control…

TimesUp #MeToo WhyIDidntTell

Sgt. USAF DAV I Remember… Margie and the eyes of suicide…. just a fyi… those broken fingers, wrist and arms and legs at 5, made sure suicide was never possible… to this day, I can’t tie knots in a rope of any kind, so for someone to say I ever tried suicide and that is whey I have those marks on my neck… those marks were put there 3 years after the first beating and my hands healed with no care for those broken fingers or wrists… still amazes me I did the basic training and military….