Vetting my Anger….

I asked Mike how long I been angry…. and he turned and said… At Christians…. and a slow grin came to my face and I said… yep…. and we busted out laughing…

It has been a long journey since November 7, 2017 when Margie awaken from her long sleep…

The shooting in Sutherland Springs, Texas and the Airman that murdered 26 people, triggered my memories… and its a moment in time I really don’t want to revist, but I must… it’s when Margie died… at the hands of christians…

The journey for this child has been up one hill and roll down the next… it took many years to be able to walk down this last hill and it has a great many bumps on the way down…

and lots of anger…

You see, the people who did this too me, some are still living and they refuse to talk and tell me what happened… yet they tell me they are children of god and honestly as I shrug my shoulders… cowards always hide behind gods… always…

The family cut me off, when they realized I remembered just about everything I want to remember…. and that scares them… because in their communities, they supposedly are good up standing…. Christians….

wow, double, triple, quadruple sigh…. they gave me up for a god that never existed, because to own what they did, would show the true color of their soul….

I have a talent, one I don’t share… Mike has seen it for so many decades, he doesn’t question it anymore, he just gets a slow grin on his face when I get that certain look on my face and waits for the show… always a lesson to learn if the student did not dummy down with religion… no one is to old to learn… including me….

The memories that haunted me for decades, the ghosts of my PTSD nightmares, don’t haunt me anymore… in fact I have to go looking for those memories, and wake them from their slumber…

Our move is critical for me… I need to go to Big Springs, Texas and visit the place Margie died at 13 years old, at the hands of christians…. and confront those demons that waft in the mists of the night… but anymore, they appear during the waking sunlit hours….

Freda and Peggy are not talking and neither is Aunt Tiny… all hiding behind a god that man made, so humans would have an excuse to rape, lie, steal and cheat life, by taking life to keep secrets that never were… as people are finding out about Moses and those lies…

Yes I am still very angry and I do wonder if it will pass…. right now it feeds my soul, because I want answers… and until I get those answers…

Anger may never be far from me, when it comes to any human that hides behind christianity….

TimesUp #MeToo WhyIDidntTell because christians threaten to take the life they stole once before… NEVER AGAIN!!!

Sgt. USAF DAV I Remember… Margie…

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