50 years I walked thru life not knowing I had a stroke at 13 years old, punishment from my christian parents…

When I had to undergo major surgery last year… I had to swear to the surgeon, nothing heavier than my bath towel, was I to pick up for 6 months… I didn’t make it that far, but close enough, she released me 6 months after surgery…. the repair was one I fought the VA for since they put the transmesh in me in 2008… took till 2017 to fix the damage, they help cause… the VA damage, that is…

Whats any of this got to do with the storke???

I am very active, always have been, sitting still just not something I do for long…. and being down, not allowed to exercise, go walking, do household chores, take care of the pups and even had to have Mike help with cooking… he was glad when that was over….

During that down time, I started to notice my left side was weak and I mean weak… I had a hard time grasping, holding and manipulating… and I only notice the issues, when I was forced to be inactive….

The stroke happened on a hot night in Big Springs, Texas… now you get why Sutherland Springs, Texas was a trigger… we were stationed at Webb AFB and were not there all that long and Freda & Don got into a good knock down drag out, no holds bar kind of fight…

My older brother got it good and I died, had a stroke and lost 9 months of my life… which explains why the edectic memory thing was so hard for me to accept… it meant accepting what christians did to a child…

I never saw Larry again until 2002…. and he never said a word and he knew… thats for the book…

I tried to get information out of Peggy and she just lied, and after remembering her being the one trying to strangle me after the boob incident… sisters, we never were….

I asked Freda, when I told her I was missing memory and she said “some things are best not remembered”….

When Tiny reached out to me, for what, I got nothing left for her to take of value… she lied and back tracked on a previous conversation… Trumpism or christian… liars always trip themselves up….

These people are living and not one has had the christian courage to tell me what happened….

It scares them to imagine what I do remember…..

The stroke thing, wow, to find out you died, had multiple strokes, I am still adjusting too that bit of MRI & MRA Information… it’s cumbersome, it’s annoying and it has walked with me, since I was 13 years old and now, I know why…

TimesUp #MeToo WhyIDidntTell

Sgt. USAF DAV I Remember… Margie, who’s light christians put out one night… but the brain fought back, because the soul was free….