Hawaii our night light last year… so much has changed…

Lava as it flowed from fissure 8 to the ocean…2018

Little did we know, when we got our appraisal last year… so much would change in a years time….

I got proof that I suffered a stroke and TIA’s… MRI & MRA was done in Dec of 18 & Jan of 19…

I got proof that I had 2 different kinds of neuropathy and all the testing showed that it was not genetic, nor any history of injuries….

I got proof from my mother and sister… I had been played for decades, so they could hide behind their god for the things they did to a child…. such good christians….

I could stand at my kitchen window and that red glow greeted me every night until late August….

One night as I was fixing coffee for the next morning I looked out to see the familiar glow and it was gone… just the odor of gas’s and smoke on the wind….

Our night light would be no more….

A year ago was the most fascinating experience I have ever had, living on this planet… and no one, not even mans god, can take that from me….

It has been a year of figuring and confronting my anger at humans that call themselves christian, that are so capable of such cruelty and be able to sleep at night… Mental illness at it’s best… must be why Trump only sleeps 4 hours a night…

Mike says I am making progress… yesterday was a complete cluster fuck and still no call from the surgeon or VA to put me on a plane and I promise that plane hubby took this morning for his doctors appointment, will be full of male veterans going to Oahu for care… and here I sit… something all to familiar in a christian run society… laws are for suckers… not christians… same goes for federal regulations and priority health care…

Frustrated, angry… I was there yesterday and I have learned to let it go, because I have control over one thing only…. Me….

Kids have till Friday to respond to our counter offer…. if they decline…. I fight for my care here… if they accept… I hope I have a partial that fills my face, but the doc says eating with it, not a good idea!!! REALLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Weight is down to 143…. 1 pound away from where I was when I quit Levothyroxine…. Eating is okay, but partials come out after and pain pill gets taken every day, just so I can tolerate them in my mouth… what a mess the VA has done to veterans… and people wonder why we commit suicide…

Forcing myself to do the exercises, because my back and knee keep giving out on me and my back went into spasms….

I really respect anyone who works out after a brain injury, if you can be discpline with exercise, the world is yours for the taking…

my motivation area of the brain is damaged… so exercise is the one thing I have found… I have to push to do… anything else, no problem… so go figure me and exercise are not friendly or on first name basis’s….

This waiting is giving me time to think and pursue thoughts I have put on the back burner… soon, eye surgery and I’ll get my right eye back… terrified, but so looking forward to seeing clearly again….

TMT demonstrators have cost us taxpayers…. 3.5 million dollars, because of the demonstrators… and that money so could be used for the homeless population, or infrastructure, like roads in the lava flow we had last year…such a waste over superstitions… when knowledge is the only true power… humans are the only gods….

As for the current health, no more heat in my skull… the only mouth pain… if I hit that root when chewing and my TMJ, but it’s real obvious Arkansas VA screwed up and changed my bite, looking at the pictures the placement of 8 & 9, they did them backwards and changed my crossbite to a over bite, displacing my lower mandible… requested med from doc for the spasms, when I over work the area, because of the current issues…. sigh…….

Honestly, they really call this health care for veterans….. Really?????????

Sgt. USAF DAV I Remember… Margie…