Head Fake of the Religious…

As a child and young adult… I was conflicted… because…of Religion and its contradictions to science and facts…

Once I ascertained religion was a head fake and they were just using psychology to control the mass’s… I was done… over it and fed up with those who are mentally ill and using religion as a front, so they may do the worse to you and your children… and that is a very true story… Cardinal Pell, I hope you rot in prison…

So when I was dealing with the stroke on Japan… I knew, somehow I knew I was up there with IQ and I was holding enough information to bury Don, Freda & Peggy… BOO!!! lol….

I was only 14 years old and I am dealing with a brain I don’t quite understand or comprehend… but it was smarter than me and I let it have control… I just forgot to take that control back…. I buried the past, so that I could survive…. and you got it…

Here I be 50 years later, trying to sort this mess out… you want to talk about jig saw puzzles, explains why I hate doing them, they aren’t challenging enough… I have a million piece one in my brain… now try putting that together….

So I put mechanisms in place so that I could mentally deal with the chaos and conflicts imposed on me by those people who bought into man made gods… nothing like the mentally ill raising kids and there be a few down in those churches in America that are beyond bat shit crazy… so says psychology… and if we use psychology in courts and throw people away with that science and we use that same science to heal… well you got to admit… religion has no basis, except in story and song… just that simple… really, you can’t have it both ways… religion and science… they contradict each other which is why humans will never truly be religious….

Doubt…, conflict…., contradiction…., falsehoods….,… need I go on…

Now getting through these barriers I put in place at 14 after that stroke… that has been the real struggle… the doubt was an issue, but it really has melted away… but some is still there and that is always good for a healthy human mind… now a religious mind, is no longer human…. it gave up humanity for a story…. again, you can’t have it both ways…

I get most the time I am talking way over your heads, because I have a thousand thoughts running at all times… it gets a little crowded… so thanks to hubby, I went back to pot, to slow the train down… stress headaches were popping into the picture…

When I was told my IQ, I didn’t believe it… I had to fight through decades of religious rhetoric and lies… nothing new on that front, christians like Trump, make a living with those lies and rhetoric… so when it’s in your own brain… you got to get through all that rhetoric and lies… and it took me some time…

Once the memory trigger happened, after the murder of those 26 people in Sutherland Springs, Texas… the rest as they say is well documented in this blog…

My anger, frustration with the living, hiding behind a fake god and excuses… you guys do know, I know where you live… doing ancestry research, I bought into sites that allow me access to anyone on the planet…. I mean come on… you just can’t hide in plain sight anymore….. true story… and face book told me a mountain of information…. don’t miss that crap either…

Anyway… once I realized that I could have any thought I wanted, without fear of retaliation by a man made god…. oh baby, have I sent a life time of ugly vibes to those people…. if prayer did any good, I would throw that in with the ugly thoughts I send to the living that did this too me… so if your last years on the planet are anything but pleasant…. You are welcomed….. just in case you are wondering where the ill will came from…. I do love messing with some brain….

I have never sought out to do revenge… instead, life has and will always do it for me… why???

Because of one simple word…. Choices…

The Choices these people made, is what shaped and formed their past and the current lives… and from the gossip getting to me… it’s not all that pleasant… and all they ever had to do….

Tell the TRUTH….

TimesUp #MeToo WhyIDidntTell

Sgt. USAF DAV I Remember… Margie…

FYI… IQ has no value to me… I learn by repitition… I have had to do that since the near death and storke at 13… though according to my memories, I was probably strangled and had a mini stroke at 8 years old over the boob incident… so the cards were never in my favor for learning… it is a true struggle, which is why I have no problem owning when I am wrong… something christians have no clue about… they are always right, even as they steal, lie, cheat, rape, abuse and murder… TRUE STORY!!!….