Fear… the mind Killer…

We are born to dream of falling… did you know that??? According to psychology, it is normal behavior, which is why I dismissed my dream of falling for so long…

I became scared of heights and in the blog I write how I was fearless up till 8 years old, so I went to the top of Tokyo Tower in 68… Didn’t like elevators… and when that made no difference, I took flying lessons at Yokota AFB… took off and landed a couple times… never could tell the difference between road an river, now I know why… and that didn’t stop the fear of heights… nope, what did stop it????

Peggy told me in the last few years about how she walked my sleeping body across the top bunk and dumped me on the floor… yep, she kept that secret over 50 years… remember, uptake on the back of my skull, hippocampus, yada, yada, yawn….

Once the memory came back of the repeated drops… my fear of heights was gone… even took our guest zip linning here on Hawaii this year, no fear…. in fact, kind of okay type activity… been up the ladder working our 12 foot ceilings, no fear… PT had me do some funny exercises, and the kid said, you have no fear… and it seems, I really don’t, but that is a misnomer… I do have fear…

Without fear, we do stupid, we take chances and we do what we really shouldn’t… it’s not evil that happens in the world… it’s just people not afraid of the reprecussions of their actions… they didn’t sell their soul… they get off on it… humans are really no different from animals… see that every day…

I have some fear and once in a while it will cloud my judgement and it will costs me in the end… and if I repeat the action, I got no one to blame, but myself, for letting fear rule and not me…

Fear kept me from seeking answers for decades in a more blunt direct way…

Not anymore….

I Remember… Margie…