I WANT to be depressed!!!

Okay, I give up… Uncle… you name it… over it…. and where the hell is my depression????

Honestly, with all I have been through… the way my kids did me… the way my family did me… the way the federal government does me, regularly….

I should be DEPRESSED!!!!! and I am not…. wow………………………..

Knowledge, if the family had done the chrisitan thing, be honest, truthful, own their lives… I wouldn’t be writing this blog… instead it would be a full blown fantasy write… which is where I used to live in my books….

Not knowing about the stroke and the fact so many lied… from father, to mother, to sister to brother to grandmother and aunt and uncle…. all christians who lied…

Yep, got no use for religion or the humans that cling to it… but……. where is my depression????

House didn’t sell, implants have not been started after 15 months of non stop pain… Eyes getting done on my dime… when in reality… I SHOULD NOT HAVE TO BEG FOR MY VA HEALTH CARE!!!!!! but no bother, now they are just murdering us again… seen that before…

Still, where is my depression??? Other than being restricted on physical activity… I have done all my usual stuff, plus some… which isn’t much, when you can’t see, but still big Bertha lets me play games, don’t win, but I can play…

I honestly thought I would be stuck with PTSD for the rest of my life, because I have had it most of my life…

Who knew a little bit of knowledge could go so far… I did… but the living isn’t telling me, they are telling their god that lives in their head…

Maybe it is better I keep my distance from them… gods in your head… yep, you be bat shit crazy.. yea but, showing up unexpectedly, would so be worth it, just saying……

I should be depressed, but I’m not… just tired of this itchy thing in my eye… which is slowly fading away… the itchy that is…an hoping the VA gets its head out of its ass and starts the dental implants… Monday dentist gets called and told off market and I want a brand new upper partial… either way, it’s going to cost the VA…..

Sgt. USAF DAV I Remember… Margie….