Patience… do we really have any???

Words, always found words fascinating…. but I couldn’t tell you the difference between a verb or a preposition…. I think that is one course I barely passed…. had to have it to get my graduation out of high school….

I find the interpretations we have, so often disagree with the dictionary…. and anymore with emojis and other forms of communication…. the english definitions are fast being replaced with the modern interpretation…. most of which I don’t get, because I don’t know them… just that simple….

Patience is not a virtue or gift… patience is a choice…. one that I had to work on over the decades….

Not knowing about the many strokes and head injuries, has made life interesting and very trying on any patience I had… but in time it grew….

I knew Mike was dealing with a issue… after 25 years he owned it… now he is working on it… I was just patient enough to let him own it….

I knew I was being played by my own family, and I had to fight denial, before I realized, my patience ran out in 2010, in Freda’s kitchen when I told her I was missing memory…. to walk away and never look back at the woman that gave me life and worked so hard to destroy it… was easy… my patience ran out, when she denied me critical health information…. she is just a woman who gave birth… no tears for her passing shall pass my cheeks… just as they did for Don’s death… patience is not a virtue…. it’s called letting life do it’s job….

I never wanted children, I knew deep down, my body was damaged and so was my brain… but I had to have patience to wait and see what life delivered… Sherlock Homes I never was…. no I was Watson in the wings, waiting and watching… but I was left with a choice, let life live or live my life…. I chose to let life live and it’s been a thankless task, not a gift…….. yet always hope and patience, they chose a good path in life… always hope… it is their lives after all… that is why I gave it to them… and was there… guess that wasn’t enough….

Patience is something I am learning to understand… I know, yesterday the brain wave happened, but it was a chemical reaction, and I enforced patience into the moment… because I recognized the moment in time….

I may not be the most polite person on the planet… I treat people the way they treat me… except hubby… him I push to become more… because I know he is capable…

Everything in life, has to do with our ability to be patient… and let life do it’s job… sometimes it needs encouragement and motivation…. but most of the time…

It just needs us to be patient……

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Sgt. USAF DAV