The past 9 months have been fun….
MRI & MRA results…
Finally got the dentist to do something and last night I figured out what tooth they screwed up in the bridge that changed my bite… because I had to take a muscle relaxer to get my facial muscles to quit spasms, that are being caused by my TMJ being put out of place, because I haven’t been able to rest my jaw naturally since the Arkansas VA put the bridge in and made a tooth that I never had…. and changed my breathing, my eating, my chewing, everything… 9 years ago, they left me with this mess….. oh joy….
I expect my CBC next week to show a low grade infection…. and it’s been going on since the Air Force did the Apeoectomy on my 2 front teeth 8 & 9….. and those roots are still in my bone and that is why I have numbness in my maxillary bone, which is not getting better… and it’s impacting my maxillary sinus and has been impacting it since 1978, when the Air Force dentist I worked with did the work…. my white count has gone off chart before and no one figured it out… hello!!!
Been off the levothyroxine since the middle of Jan…. and no issues….
Had a brain wave happen a little while ago… knew it was going to before it did it’s thing… this hit autonomic and caused the pain in the chest that mimics a heart attack… something I have lived with since around 6 years old… pulse is usually just fine and its the stomach and esphoagus that are being irritated by the brain… so, nope it doesn’t feel good…. it’s a vice grip feeling…..
I am going to have fun, going back through this blog and seeing the confusion, contradiction, the loss memory, the forgotten procedures…. as the chaos of the thyroid drug getting out of my body and knowing in advance the wave is going to hit…. I am becoming the one in control and not the body….. it’s interesting, frustrating… add the eyes and dental into the mix…. I am ready to get off this roller coaster of a ride….
Right now, it’s focus on getting my last eye surgery and recover from it… eventually get new glass’s so I can see again… I can see, but the left eye is so bad, it interfers with the right eye… and not wearing glass’s all the time is funny, because you catch yourself removing glass’s that aren’t there!!!….
Weight is stable… no more going backwards… pain meds still being used, so I can tolerate the partials… and doc gave me lots of muscle relaxer meds, which help with my face….
For everything I have ever read about amnesia…. I never thought I suffered from it… no wonder my depression was awful… part of me was missing….
Just saw a bird fly by and snag a dragon fly… nice quiet day on our little street… holding tank full and everything so green and thriving….
I felt intense anger, when doing our mile this morning… Anger at the person who orchestrated all this damage to my body…. so yep, still mad…. in time it will subside… but not yet… it’s not over, yet…..
Surgical procedures just flashed before my eyes…. I woke up, when they were taking the lens out of my eye, it was a weird sight, but out I went, I think I talked, so they pushed more juice…. jibber jabber was what I did, under that anesthesia….
I think it’s time to get a updated MRI of the adhesions… got a feeling something is hitting the intestines again… so weird I know it’s happening… that is what saved me in 1984 and the surgeon listened… the Air Force ignored me… it’s all well documented, which is why I get 100% VA….. and they said I was average intelligence…… 15 years after discharge, I got my 100%… made permanent a few years later… and service connected… not bad for average intelligence….per my peers….
Now it’s just fight to get the care I earned…get the dental done, and I can use Medicare for everything else….
Back to exercising, till my next surgery and they make me stay down another week…. things to do… bowls to smoke…. get it done, before we get hot….
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Sgt. USAF DAV I Remember… Margie….