Remembering to Live….

Transitions happen in life… and damn, the screen is fuzzy…. my vision is still not stable… wow, this is a trip, the eye surgery….

Anyhow…. I know the drill… the way I transition in life to circumstances I have no control over….

Example… I called out my oldest… hoping the wake up call would change his path, he was hell bent on… one that would lead to a life of always trying to out guess and stay one step ahead… same kind of con Trump is pulling…

I find it ironic, conversations my children had, or let me put it this way… things they said and did, so they could feel comfortable with distancing themselves from me…my way of life is stricter than any religion I have ever studied… may explain that bucket of shit Freda talks about… it’s just natural for me… to choose the right path, free of mans religious fears…..

Example…. in 2008 I got the official diagnosis of COPD… my oldest didn’t believe I have this illness… so I told him what he wanted to hear… I didn’t have the illness….

Ironic, but I was born with double phneumonia… according to Freda and I almost died or something along that line, according to her verison of events… from that time on, bronchitis was and always has been a part of my life… thus the bio-feed back exercises in the military… to help me cope with the heavy calcification on my rib cage at a young age… the bio-feed back was also to help with coping with the rape of my child and other health issues… but my lungs, it has played an important role in keeping me off medications… I do use a specific type of inhaler to keep my lungs working better… so I can breathe deeper….

As for the transition…. I can feel it happening… It’s the way I cope with those who tried to take from me and put the blame on me… it’s life, because of those who can’t live like I do or envy, I don’t know, I give up trying to figure out why people behave the way they do and call it appropriate behavior towards their child, parent, grandparent or friend…

I call it like it is… you can’t live the way I do, and call yourself christian… just that simple…

Being good, doesn’t require a religion… being good requires a desire to live life based on laws….

We all screw up… but we don’t all own it…

Instead we pray away our sins and transgressions, instead of owning life, we sell it to the highest bidder and for most… that’s a god or the con they are living….

I feel sorry for these people, regardless their relation to me… it’s always comes down to one thing and one thing only in life….

Choice….

I am choosing to transition into how I plan to live the last of my years on earth…. those players that chose a path of lies and deceit… won’t be a part of that life… only because of their….

Choices… and fear of how I judge them… like that really has any value… you have to forgive yourself, so you can walk away from mans gods and head fake beliefs… life is and always will be about one thing only….

Choices….

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Sgt. USAF DAV I Remember…. Margie….