Touch me again and You will die…

The only time I stood up to the man before I left home…. was after he knocked me 10 feet across the room on my knees… and Freda said…”Don you shouldn’t have done that”….

How little did I know, I had the power to change our family forever and in a way I did…. I made sure I would not be welcomed in that family…. I was 17 years old, Naha AFB, Okinawa……

Upon our return to America…. I left home and started my own life… along the way, I tried entering the military and failed the test so miserably, it set me on a path of discovery… I just didn’t know it would take me from 1972 to 2017 to find the road home….

The chaos of stroke and traumatic brain injury has been one of the most fascinating experiences of my life and it is still ongoing…

Daily I wake to find my thought process and brain reaction evolving… Mike said, “does that mean you are growing up”??? I said,”I hope not”,… and I marvel at my tenacity to get this far, with little to no help from the professionals….

The abnormal brain wave happened a few days back, its documented in this goofy blog thing… and the body purge started, but not like it has done for decades… free fall… no this time is has been controlled, or at least I think that is what is happening….

I think some of what I deal with in the brain department with that abnormal brain wave, is connected to the endochryine system and the hippocampus… I really don’t know how to convey, what I am experiencing on the brain level… but I know things are changing…. for the good…

The body is responding to the physical part of this recovery…. and the brain is growing and adapting…. Some things will never change… like how I learn and absorb information… or how I make memories, because of all the trauma and brain injuries… those are structured and adaptive to the injuries and life I have lived….

I find my brain is more into learning new, not examing old… the book is in my mind a lot lately… how to put it all together… most of all how to start it…

Once that is figured out, it should just all fall into place… but I am not there yet… I still have more on this journey to accomplish… and I do want to undergo a couple EEG tests to see if we can get more answers about this brain wave abnormality I live with…

Here on Hawaii, we have lost over 2,000 doctors since we moved to the area… so health care is going to suffer, because the big island is growing… daily… though less people have insurance and government coverage, so waiting may not be as long as it is now… at least for this veteran…. who knows… not me….

Right now, it’s just live it one day at a time… we aren’t making plans… we are just living… until the players involved with my life do their jobs… we are in limbo and that is how I am taking it daily… just living and letting life go about it’s daily buisness… I’m just along for the ride….

I Remember… Margie….