Popeye… you lied….edited

With the vision being a major issue, it’s use the memory system and review what I have read… and one of the things that popped into my grey cells… was a memory from my active duty time… and in my military records, in 1978, it states I said…”my back has always hurt”…. and it still does, even with the exercises…. and it didn’t start until the near death in Texas, 1967…. death because someone had to have sex…. yea for humans….

There are days I would love to just stomp, beat, pulverize those who did this to my body, before I made 15 years old… over 50 years of this non stop pain and issues… and no one, not one doctor had a clue in my adult years… because….

I didn’t have a clue, because….. the living are as silent as the grave I keep trolling the obituaries for…. true story… no revenge… justice… my point of view, justice… and all they ever had to do… OWN their lives… never happen as long as god is in the picture… easier to hide that way in plain sight….

The pain the last few days in the TMJ on both sides, is telling of the headaches that run the line of the Trigeminal nerve… and the more I recognize the pattern, the more I am sure the nerve has been an issue since the near death in Texas….. dent in skull could be a clue to… lol…yep I acutally chuckled on that one…okay so I am twisted… I gots a condition….

You get freaked over the amount and location of the pain… so much internal damage that I have had forever, which can kill me at anytime… per the surgery on Japan after my discharge… ticking time bomb….

Over whelmed with it all, the mental part, the physical part, the current health issues that the VA created… again…. trying to gain control over all of it and not go off, half cocked… progress… so much progress, in such little time…

I have only been remembering 22 months now…. the strokes and near death, almost 9 months now…. knowledge… knowledge would have allowed me to thrive, when I was younger… but people are playing god, so they can hide in plain sight…okay that is Trump & Kavanaugh….

The pain has to be addressed, so pain meds taken… pot helps, but I can only do that for so long and it doesn’t impact anything… except my thought process….

I do the exercises for the body… the TMJ, I only know one and do it daily…. as long as I can manage the pain… the VA is not winning….

As long as I don’t quit working on this journey to remember…. the family is not winning….

Sounds like a challenge……

Hmmmmm….Challenge accepted…..

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Sgt. USAF DAV I Remember… Margie…