Exiting the Rabbit Hole….

I want to scream from the roof tops and tell everyone… I have had amnesia for 52 years!!! and there are people alive, who can give me answers… but they are afraid they will have to admit their lives have been a lie……….

And that thought slips off for another trip around the block of insanity…. straight jacket, padded walls… naw, think I’ll pass….

Other than having some questions for neurology about the abnormal brain wave… the answers have been coming on their own… enough more stress and I might grow extra organs… it has been known to happen to humans, grow extra organs…. body I would do… brain…. no thanks….

No depression, a little melancholy, but that is about it…

Wrapping my head around the fact I died at 13 and no one told me… or that I had strokes and seizures and no one told me… talk about government cover up…. geez….they never quit…

I blame that on religion, forefathers warned… no one listened… so here we go again with a crooked christian in the white house and loads of them in the senate… must make my cousin George proud… oh, it’s not Martha that is a cousin… It was George Washington… his momma is a Ball, an that’s my mothers line…. funny what you find out when you can see the screen….

It was easier to wrap my head around Washingtons connection to the family, than it was to comprehend the horror Margie endured….

And that is the crux of the issue… I remember much, more than the family wants me too and if my guess is right… more is to come… memories hit every day… but I don’t analyze them like I did…

Nope, I am back to living life… dealing with life and just … living it…. coping and figuring how to accomplish the goals we have set for ourselves….

The chaos… only happens now, when the wave starts and the heat hits my skull… but that seems to be about it… it would seem… Margie is enjoying her stroll and is crossing each memory as it approaches….

I am curious if a year from now, will I have remembered all???… 2 years since I remembered my death…. this next year, will be busy but not stressful… we are leaving here… either next fall or early the spring of 2021… but we are going home… not a matter of if… just when….

I remember… Margie….