My Anger Boils Over….

After spending part of my night in the recliner sobbing after hubby went to bed… and finding my nose plugged from all the crying and not able to lay down and breathe…. I pushed my brain to the positive side of this mess and that was not easy….

The denture fits like a mouth guard fits… and that is what hit me this morning… it fits like a mouth guard and since I already have a small mouth to begin with… I never was able to wear a mouth guard for sports… tried it once… never did it again… I nearly drowned in my own saliva… just like yesterday when I left the dental clinic, not 10 mins down the road and I was tearing the denture out of my mouth, so I could swallow…. denture went flying… good thing the car windows were closed…. sigh……………………….

So, when clinic opens this morning, phone call, and the dentist can start shaving the denture down, so that it’s not as thick….I mean I couldn’t even get my tongue to the front teeth and touch my own upper inside lip area… ya know it’s too big, when it interfers with normal function… thus why, no room for food, tongue and denture… something has to go and thickness will be it, which will make it tolerable to wear, but will it function for eating… by being thinner????

I resent the fact, my hubby, can see his doc, needs a specialist and it’s all taken care of including see the specialist and get procedure done… 30 days or less…. last one was 3 weeks… and I’m the Veteran!!!!!!!…. and he is my dependent….. Mcconnel should be ashamed to call himself speaker and christian….

At least the denture fits, fits snug, which did surprise me… it’s just 2 X thicker than my mouth can hold… just that simple….. it’s too big…

So take it to town today, let him have it to sand down the whole denture and make it thinner and tell him… you have to request more specialist on this or you are going to cost me my health… fear, always makes them do more, when they can be held liable…..

My mouth still hurts on the right side, near the cheek bone… so that tissue is going to be a problem with the denture….

Trial and error is what is going to happen…. I get the roots removed this week and will be in to see the dentist the next week for another adjustment when the swelling goes down… one root is still outside the gum line, so adjustment needed….

As for eating… I have the other partial, that I am making myself use to condition the right side and make it tougher, so that eating is tolerable… all about muscle memory and same goes for soft tissue… you get it used to impact… you learn to ignore the discomfort… just like all my other pain I have lived with since toddler age….

So positive side of this…I have a denture, I can go out in public… and with the doc adjusting it… I will be able to eat with it… I hope….

Ya know how you get something on your finger when cooking and your hands are squeaky clean and you see that chocolate just hiding on your finger and you take your front teeth to scrape it off…. that’s all I want… to be able to use my front teeth… and I haven’t been able to do that since the Arkansas Dental VA clinic screwed up my bite in 2010….

One thing on that note… when I saw PT in 2017… she worked my TMJ and oh my could I let go a good ouch…. Since that front bridge came out after breaking… that tissue on the TMJ on both sides of the face…. after a month of that bridge gone…. no longer on fire… So I was right about the fact they changed my bite… and the dentist here did the denture off that bridge and he’s not going to like it when I tell him the denture is way to long in the tooth and to far forward… my top and bottom front teeth touch… not over lap… they sit on top of each other… and that gives my tongue and food room to allow eating… right now the denture is a over bite and that took the room of my food… big time frustrated sigh… cause I told him the bite was wrong…………………………………………………………………………..

Day started, time for a walk, a big bowl… a pain pill and call doc at 8 so I can go back to town…. oh yea…..

I Remember…….Margie…