Red Pill Life… Blue Pill God…

When I watched the Matrix, I thought, that is a concept I thought of decades ago… as I was working my way out of the chaos of strokes…. and I was just learning computers… how little did I know, my imagiation had some substance….

I watch as Trump and base pursue taking my rights away as a woman… because they believe a heart beat denoates life… It does not… and I speak from experience… I died….

When the heart stops… as long as that brain is still working, you are alive… you can’t die, if the brain works… it’s the head honcho for that bag of flesh you walk around in… and that is what happened to me…

My fathers blow to my chest stopped my heart… but the brain kicked it back into gear and here I sit 52 years after I died… IQ 136 and self aware, with just a touch of edetic memory ability….. and when I died… darkness… nothing but silence and darkness… so I get why people have to believe in gods… that darkness was scary….Until I remembered my death…. and now……as I let a very long sigh out… I know what awaits, when my time comes…. and because of that….

I live…..

My grandkids told me they call us the fun grandparents… because we get out and do things the other grandparents don’t do… roller skating a few years ago… I spent more time on the floor on my back… that’s what they remember….

But that is what they think… because their parents didn’t know us and still don’t today… why???

Because we are still finding ourselves and we chose life over gods…

That way, we are always learning and growing and never wanting to give up on life and quit being young….

Hubby is crippled from RA… me, I fight my bodies betrayal daily… but I still will stop and do a 2 step in the middle of the store…. or skip or start humming…. I live in the moment and each moment is so precious…. why???

Because I lost 9 months of moments that I am seeking….

Red or blue pill… we each chose what gives us what we think we desire….

I desire life…. it was taken once in violence… it was interrupted many times by that violence…. a mans god clouded the life, the stars gave me…

man did not give me life… nor did their gods…

We are made of super novas… and that is who I thank for my life….. an me….

Sgt. USAF DAV I remember… Margie

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