What woke me up….

I knew, when the tooth broke at the gum line, and it still has sensation for hot and cold... I was screwed... and it hasn't been that off the chart painful... but it lets me know it's there... As for the drainage that woke me up... my guess and I have not reserached this... but … Continue reading What woke me up….

Sale Price Lowered… Hawaii house for sale…

Getting woke up at 3AM by blood and some other nasty taste in the back of my throat, made me realize... federal employees on Hawaii are playing god with my life and they don't have a right... NO ONE DOES!!!! NOT EVEN GOD TRUMP!!!! So I sent the realtor a new listing to put out … Continue reading Sale Price Lowered… Hawaii house for sale…

Restless night, no VA Health Care….

I took an oath to serve and protect America..... Begging for my dental care as a 100% service connected veteran, never crossed my mind, until I could not work anymore, because of multiple brain injuries.... In 2016 a male veteran made national news because he could not get an appointment at the VA in a … Continue reading Restless night, no VA Health Care….

Depression has lost its grip…

Wow, after Friday, breaking a tooth... Yesterday begging for my VA health care.... Buyers declining our counter offer today.... Damn me, I am not depressed!!!! Holy crap on a cracker!!!! I am not depressed!!! Wow.... It all goes back to knowledge... and the fact the chaos is over... It is gone, Margie is back.... It … Continue reading Depression has lost its grip…

House still for sale…

The buyers declined our counter... If they had offered a better deal, we would have considered it... they wanted about $20,000 between money and property, on top of the house... not realistic.... Recession is coming our way... cost of living has gone up the last few months... I have cut use of the dryer, not … Continue reading House still for sale…

Hawaii health care…

Be warned, the island is short on doctors, specialist, you name it...or Mike would not be on Oahu today... Still no call back from oral surgeons office and at this point after begging for an appointment yesterday, doubt they will call back... Go back in my blog an see how I was treated early on … Continue reading Hawaii health care…

100% DAV Serivce Connected, gets worse care than dependent husband… FACT!

When I caught Mikes heart failure in 2014, he had been on CHAMPVA since 2004 and medicare since 2004... We learned early on, we never had to take a dime out of pocket, except for transportation for his health care after that point in time... He had open heart surgery and a triple bypass the … Continue reading 100% DAV Serivce Connected, gets worse care than dependent husband… FACT!

Word Press???edited…

I was looking at Ipad after update an all of a sudden, you can not see todays stats with other stats... Kids you got problems with your update... guess I am stuck with yesterdays stats... cluster F..... Sgt okay todays numbers showed up...somebody babysitting meπŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ€ͺ???

Hawaii our night light last year… so much has changed…

Lava as it flowed from fissure 8 to the ocean...2018 Little did we know, when we got our appraisal last year... so much would change in a years time.... I got proof that I suffered a stroke and TIA's... MRI & MRA was done in Dec of 18 & Jan of 19... I got proof … Continue reading Hawaii our night light last year… so much has changed…

Dental patient bled out…edited….

Back in the day, when I was a dental tech in the Air Force... I had no knowledge, understanding, comprehension... nada, when it came to medicine... in fact, I couldn't even remember much of school... so naive and ignorant when I got to the base DDA... direct duty assignment from basic training... no schooling... I … Continue reading Dental patient bled out…edited….

Document….

Word Press you suck... just had to sign into my account AGAIN!!!!!!! circa 1975... What I am trying to do... come up with a picture that shows my proper placement of my front teeth, before the military and VA got those crappy incompetent hands on me... so when I am at the dentist getting this … Continue reading Document….

Back to Basics…. Health first…

Okay, the day has been one of revelations... the dental clinic, I guess according to the surgeons office had not provided them with the necessary diagnostic info... -1 for them... but the VA priority authroization was +1 for the VA, but surgeon can't get me in anytime soon... -1 for the VA, why aren't I … Continue reading Back to Basics…. Health first…

VA will NOT impact my mental health!!!

Exhausted... doesn't take much emotional upset and I am done, drained for the day... I so get suicide among veterans... When I worked with patients in our dental clinic, we connected because our regular patients were retirees or those stationed permanent at the base... our transit was the pilot students... When I would talk with … Continue reading VA will NOT impact my mental health!!!

Enough Already…. I am in control!!!

Enough of the rants... nothing you can do about corrupt christians in government... started working civil service when I was 17 years old as a GS2...wow that was a long time ago... I saw corruption at that time and saw it up till I walked away from my last federal job in 1996.... Trump just … Continue reading Enough Already…. I am in control!!!

Waiting on Surgeon…

Okay, I am done... UNCLE... the clinic told me yesterday they sent everything out to the surgeon and the VA... Called the surgeon this morning to make appointment and they got VA emergency authroization... oh yea... but nada from the dental clinic??? Oh boy, what if just popped back into the drop in dental care … Continue reading Waiting on Surgeon…

Mens Dicks are more important than my Dental Health per the VA!!!

Furious... oh that is an understatement.... Oahu VA will put a man on a plane from the big island to get his little dick taken care of... But won't put a woman veteran on a plane to get her mouth fixed????? One is used for pissing and sexual pleasure.... The other allows a person to … Continue reading Mens Dicks are more important than my Dental Health per the VA!!!

Beating the corrupt VA system and costing federal employees their job…

Good luck with any of that.... an incident in Arkansas and El Paso and those employees still work for the federal government and they are both unstable employees and they should have been fired... but when Senators protect those employees... you are fucked... just that simple... So how do I beat the VA at their … Continue reading Beating the corrupt VA system and costing federal employees their job…

When Arkansas VA Screws UP!!!

Only picture I can find, that shows my front two teeth in proper placement... what was once a slight cross over bite... is now a severe cross over bite, but they switched the the two front teeth... Instead of #9 sitting behind my mandible line of teeth, the Arkansas VA Dentist changed my bite by … Continue reading When Arkansas VA Screws UP!!!

Ugh!!!

Having lots of medical knowledge, you know more than you should and can be dangerous... thankfully, I haven't gotten it wrong yet, but a day will come... So much for dental surgery any time soon.... I have cataract surgery here pretty soon and that makes me vulnerable, though rare for those kind of complications... I … Continue reading Ugh!!!

VA Death care…

Wow, just had to sign in, to get into my blog... talk about a program that has more issues than a psycho path... that's this software..... and I know it's not me... real pain in the ass to have to go find the damn cell phone, so I can authorize myself to get on my … Continue reading VA Death care…

Depression, on it’s way like Dino….

I got it at a young age, by the time I was 6 or 7... I was depressed... Made me an easy target by christians to be brain washed... even got baptized twice, because of the parents beating on me and abuse by others... didn't do any good at that time and it won't change … Continue reading Depression, on it’s way like Dino….

Help, I need somebody’s Help…..

Never got into the Beatles... I like Wings, but the Beatles or Stones... just not my cup of tea... more into the Moody Blues, Eagles, America.... would love to buy a juke box for our next home... and turn a room into a old fashion soda hop right out of the 50's.... The headaches have … Continue reading Help, I need somebody’s Help…..

Buying a house…

We have selected our final home... Now its start the process an hope things work the way we would like it too... As for where, only time will tell... Know how to keep an asshole in suspenseπŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜˜ Could be Gig harbor, Port Angeles... any town in Washington is home.... see ya lil bro...(he lives in … Continue reading Buying a house…

The Difference….edited…

A christian is a human that hides behind a Man Made God.... A liar is a human, that thinks you are as crooked and stupid as they are.... Not much difference between these two humans.... I trust a liar, before I will trust a christian... because a christian thinks they have a RIGHT to rape, … Continue reading The Difference….edited…

PTSD, stress and triggers have changed…

Before, when stressed with health and financial issues... I was a quick draw on the temper.... still am if I am hungry... never stand between a woman and her food... true story... It's obivous to me, I have been fighting infection for a few years... and only because of my healthy lifestyle or genetics... It … Continue reading PTSD, stress and triggers have changed…

Why are people bigots???

When Mike was reviewing the offer, as I can't see the small print.... he got a little uncomfortable when he brought up the subject, the buyers wanted a "Professional cleaning crew" to clean the house before they occupied it!!! Now if my computer had emojis... there would be quite a few!!!! Anyone who knows me, … Continue reading Why are people bigots???

Hope Springs Eternal… as long as christians have zero say….

You take on a corrupt religion and no matter what business or health care system you use... they will retaliate... just that simple... Trump is not the only thin skinned chrisitan in federal employment... they like to play god, since their is no real god... that's how they get their rocks off... no wonder no … Continue reading Hope Springs Eternal… as long as christians have zero say….

The Scent drifted in on a breeze and triggered a memory….

Have you any clue how wild this ride is??? It's better than any kind of magic mushroom or acid.... Since I have done neither, I can only go by the science of what is happening... and my brain is in geek over drive... that is a True Story... Stress today... been down this road before... … Continue reading The Scent drifted in on a breeze and triggered a memory….

Counter Offer…. edited….

It's always nice, when You hire a strong willed woman, who wants to make a dime or two... She came back with reason and logic, so we countered the offer... I did warn her I was sick and fighting to get my care through the corrupt VA system... My eyes, doing that on medicare, if … Continue reading Counter Offer…. edited….

Offer rejected…

Honest peeps, bought an sold half a dozen homes sine 88.... Never insult the seller who DOES NOT HAVE TO SELL!!! Offer rejected... People watch to much HGTV House Hunters.... Still insulted by the offer.... πŸ˜³πŸ˜³πŸ˜³πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚ Yippee, finally got my first insulting offer... Sgt USAF DAV

VA Death Care….

This morning, I did a more thorough exam of my maxillary and even with the naked eye, I can see the roots rotting in the mouth thru the tissue, my tissue is that thin... on the whole maxillary..... The two bridges I had for molars on the maxillary, I paid for... got tired of spending … Continue reading VA Death Care….

Word Press Working….

Since the update to this specific machine, by Windows.... that update, as it does its things in the background, changed a few things, that I had to undo... do they really tests against other software??? Remember, multiple TBI's.... I learn by repitition, and software updates to certain programs I can deal with, some I can't, … Continue reading Word Press Working….

Furious… + 1 Million points for me….

Okie dokie, being mad isn't going to do me any good... but damn, if I got a $1,000 for every time I was right... I would be richer than our nation and that's not saying much after Trump dragged us into the pits of hell for national debt.... big time sigh.... The Amoxicillin has been … Continue reading Furious… + 1 Million points for me….

50 years I walked thru life not knowing I had a stroke at 13 years old, punishment from my christian parents…

When I had to undergo major surgery last year... I had to swear to the surgeon, nothing heavier than my bath towel, was I to pick up for 6 months... I didn't make it that far, but close enough, she released me 6 months after surgery.... the repair was one I fought the VA for … Continue reading 50 years I walked thru life not knowing I had a stroke at 13 years old, punishment from my christian parents…

Still got it….

Not bad for a 65 year old woman with a broken body.... Until six feet under, this old woman has got it....πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ₯³ Sgt USAF DAV I Remember Margie, who's light always shined bright....

Natures way…

I think religion is useful if you have no desire to grow.... Nature grew this way, no divine intervention, just sun, rain and the dirt we put for it to grow on.... This will be one sweet decadent treat, thanks to nature....our only true god... Sgt USAF DAV I Remember Margie...

2 years of symptoms, will they disappear now???

We moved here in 2016.... and I kept up with my dental thru the VA, even if I didn't like the VA... so no drop in care, but not very good care as I am fast finding out.... When the dentist did my checkup 2 years ago, I told him something was screwy with the … Continue reading 2 years of symptoms, will they disappear now???

7 day regiment

Antibiotics on board, gave me exactly what he should... By Monday, pain should be more manageable.. No thanks to Oahu VA playing god... We no longer have Veterans health care... We now have Veterans death care because of Trump an his corrupt christian base... True Story Sgt USAF DAV 100% service connected!!!

Medical Training paying off…..

One thing about working in a ER, on the Ward and being a dental tech with EMT training... you have a little knowledge... and that was 40 years ago... I have learned much more since...as hubbys heart failure will attest... docs missed it, I caught it.... Seems today is some kind of holiday on Hawaii, … Continue reading Medical Training paying off…..

Getting Evidence together….

I have taken on the federal government so many times... I know more than most lawyers... why??? Because I NEVER lost one appeal or fight... Not ONE!!! I didn't get much sleep last night... I had to make some decisions on how to address the now life threatening issue I am dealing with.... As a … Continue reading Getting Evidence together….

Evidence…

Had Mike take a couple pictures for me and him, no medical or dental training and he could see my front teeth were severely out of alignment!!!! 10 years of migraines, sinus infections an non stop pain by Arkansas VA Dental!!!!! Medical negligence is something I have fought against, in the VA system for the … Continue reading Evidence…

Loss of Souls…

Light on earth used to be so full of promise.... For every soul that believes in religion.... The earth gets that much darker.... Religion dumbs down the brain and steals the soul.... Just look at people like priests, Trump, Kavanaugh, Graham, Mcconnell, Thomas...all christians who souls they sold to the highest bidder..... as they threw … Continue reading Loss of Souls…

Not a shock…

After the last of the bridge broke off in my mouth last night, I got to see exactly how bad the VA dentist from Arkansa screwed things up with my two upper front teeth an, I was not shocked to see the bone the Endo doc from Arkansas VA put in, definitely put my bite … Continue reading Not a shock…

A Costly Decision….

Dramatic, yes... starting to feel pain, some, nothing I can't handle... been in non stop pain since I was 5 years old... the right side of my face feeling like it wants to cut its self off and run away... I know the tricks... did the job in the military.... dropping head kind of sigh.......................... … Continue reading A Costly Decision….

100% Service Connected Veteran, now forced to starve…

While eating dinner and I have not been able to use the partial, so it's what teeth I got and I bite into a piece of texas toast and here comes the rest of my bridge with the pontif on it... you know the fake tooth... I now have a root and from what I … Continue reading 100% Service Connected Veteran, now forced to starve…

Who or What is the ROOT of All Evil???

Ever have one of those days, where you just got to explore and find out the answers to the questions you keep beating into the ground... today is that day for me... the cataracts are off to the side and I am getting to do some reading... and I have had fun.... When I research … Continue reading Who or What is the ROOT of All Evil???

Religion is the root of evil??? edited…

twitter.com/adorablespite/status/1162052256361066497 Always seeking answers and different perspectives.... I attended a lecture at Imiloa center and the astronomer said he was catholic and a scientist... he was conflicted.... Ruined the lecture for me on physics.... Religion is a brain disorder and psychology says you can not tell people they are delusional, you got to teach them … Continue reading Religion is the root of evil??? edited…

Proof why is it so hard to get???

twitter.com/adorablespite/status/1162028821119471617 Instead of trying to shut me down... Prove your faith is real and not a manifestation of mental illness.... Better yet talk to a psychiatrist and ask them if religion is a delusional state of mind.... Slave owners always think they have a right, only one problem.... Slavery in America was abolished until christians … Continue reading Proof why is it so hard to get???

DOT does not own road???

Mauna Kea, it hit news a little while ago... DOT did not complete some agreement concerning the access road to Mauna Kea, giving certain Hawaiians authorization to do exactly what they are doing...on that road??? Did not catch all the story, but if this is true....this is a major victory for the native Hawaiians and … Continue reading DOT does not own road???

Vetting my Anger….

I asked Mike how long I been angry.... and he turned and said... At Christians.... and a slow grin came to my face and I said... yep.... and we busted out laughing... It has been a long journey since November 7, 2017 when Margie awaken from her long sleep... The shooting in Sutherland Springs, Texas … Continue reading Vetting my Anger….

The Neuropathy is Progressing…

Getting dinner ready and Mike always does the sharp knive stuff... but this time, it's fresh veggies to prepare for storage, yada, yada... and I look at my thumb a few minutes ago and there are several slice marks from the knife, when I was doing vegetables and I never felt anything until the tissue … Continue reading The Neuropathy is Progressing…

Oh dear… Jury Duty…

I knew the notice was coming in the mail, we have delivery notice set up, so we know when meds arrive and all mail that is scanned.... so I knew... And of course, picked up the phone and called the doctor for a written excuse to not participate in Jury Duty... clock is ticking on … Continue reading Oh dear… Jury Duty…

Old Pain from the TV beating…

Vastus lateralis... it has always hurt... I remember when Tiny got married and I was with Granny, Tiny, Betty and the guys and I stood outside the car and stomped my legs, because they hurt and granny looking at the other adults said... "It's growing pains"... she knew I had been beaten and lied... so … Continue reading Old Pain from the TV beating…

Democracy destroyed by Christians…

Have you noticed as a Woman in America... YOU HAVE NO SAY ABOUT YOUR BODY???!!! So SLAVERY in America is not dead, because CHRISTIANS think... mind you not well, but they try so hard... but they THINK they have a say OVER MY BODY!!!! Oh please, any mother fucking Christian out there, if you think … Continue reading Democracy destroyed by Christians…

Christian Trump Lies…

TRUMP being president is not costing you because you LIE... Your presidency put a RAPIST on the SUPREME COURT... Your presidency is destroying lives by tearing families apart.... and I PRAY TO YOUR FAKE GOD YOU GET A TASTE of your bigotry and hate and spend the rest of your life in ORANGE!!! Hope springs … Continue reading Christian Trump Lies…

Recession here we come…

To all those followers I had on Face Book, who worked so hard to shut me down because of the corrupt christian faith They believe in.... I told you when Trump was elected to grab your ass and so many of you got upset because I attacked your corrupt christian bull shit.,. TOLD YOU SOπŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚ … Continue reading Recession here we come…

Apology to WP, maybe…

When I got home, did all the other stuff, wrote on the blog, yada, yada... my PC needed restarting for updates, so I let it and it took forever, as usual... so by the time I got back on the machine to write in the blog... WP wanted me to log in and use password... … Continue reading Apology to WP, maybe…

Abnormal Brain Wave… pre seizure activity???

I have said lately, headaches, lots of them... all on the left pariteal temporal area... basically opposite of my strokes... and brain damage.... I wrote earlier about how the young Hawaiian behaved and just a FYI, she was dressed professional... so she wasn't some kid off the street... and she went after me starting with … Continue reading Abnormal Brain Wave… pre seizure activity???

Disabled, Black, Hispanic, Asian, Female, Male, Transgender… bigotry was in full force today on Hawaii…

The day started with laughter over the pups and the peanut butter... By the time we got to Hilo and started to walk into the garden entrance at Walmart, I could feel the abnormal brain wave and someone was behind me as I moved my head and neck around to stop the dizzy feeling coming … Continue reading Disabled, Black, Hispanic, Asian, Female, Male, Transgender… bigotry was in full force today on Hawaii…

Reality of VIOLENCE….

twitter.com/adorablespite/status/1161363610683289602 Reality, it starts with what you taught your kids to believe, teach fantasy and the result is violence... Sgt USAF DAV I Remember Margie....

Morning comedy…

If you need a good laugh... get a pet, one that works for your situation... We give our dogs 1000gm of salmon oil and zantac daily... helps with the NSAIDs they take... and of course I do it with food and usually peanut butter... Our front door is not far from the side kitchen door … Continue reading Morning comedy…

Satellite Delay on Internet… edited…

Just a FYI, when you been married to a communications Air Force specialist.... and when you have had training yourself on programming and hacking by the Air Force... lil ole me.... you know how things really work on the internet and satellite systems... why, because we got the damn training!!! So this morning, I am … Continue reading Satellite Delay on Internet… edited…

Censorship by Twitter an Word Press

At this juncture its very obvious everything I write by Twitter or Blog is being censored!!! We have internet and at this early point of the day, the drain on satellite internet is not consequently affecting posts... BUT THE COMPANIES LIKE TWITTER AN WORD PRESS ARE!!!! They proved it this morning, one twitter hit instantly, … Continue reading Censorship by Twitter an Word Press

Mauna Kea Terrorism…

I believe in respecting the land, do it every property we buy... We leave a very small carbon foot print... Not so with so called Hawaiians.... 5AM on Makuu street a banger at 5AM blasting noise so loud, it takes you out of a deep sleep and ruins your day!!!! THAT IS NOT RESPECTING THE … Continue reading Mauna Kea Terrorism…

Sometimes everyone needs a pillow…

You got to appreciate the simple life... Today her brother howled with me and was so proud, he danced, if a dog can dance... Sometimes life is just as simple as wanting a pillow to rest your head... Trump has no clue what humanity is or ever was... I thank religion for the loss of … Continue reading Sometimes everyone needs a pillow…

Repressed Memories… the journey continues…edited

Stress, always a good trigger on my memories and the last couple of days have been busy getting ready to show the house... which went well, many compliments... but again, our price may just be out of reach and if we can't get the full bang, leaving right now, with so much in the works, … Continue reading Repressed Memories… the journey continues…edited

Slow and Steady with the Autonomic Neuropathy… edited

This concerns me only in the respect, no one has seen me have issues while eating... In the old days, the kids were in an out of the house, all adults, except our daughter and of course their friends always in tow... Well in 98 I dropped to 116 pounds and at 44 thats just … Continue reading Slow and Steady with the Autonomic Neuropathy… edited

Christians above the Law…

Why is supreme court judges Thomas an Kavanaugh or let alone Trump above the law??? Because they hide behind the label of CHRISTIAN??? Why are CHRISTIANS ABOVE THE LAW???? They are human, they bleed red and they all RAPED!!! SGT USAF DAV I Remember Margie...

Rumor Mill, Me TooπŸ˜‚πŸ˜³πŸ™ˆπŸ™ŠπŸ™‰

Epstein's death, be it suicide or murder...I was happy, another rich predator was off the street that was being protected by the rich an powerful.... Before I met my husband, I played with the millionaires club, for a very short time, an I mean short... was not impressed with the Jaguar or Mercedes... Now I … Continue reading Rumor Mill, Me TooπŸ˜‚πŸ˜³πŸ™ˆπŸ™ŠπŸ™‰

Putting on the Ritz…

Weekend shot, cleaning up an setting up for buyers... Hubby outside cleaning windows, carpet steamed cleaned, never got carpet in the tropics... Touch up painting done, stainless an granite polished... damn I feel like this is a military inspection before moving out of base housing... True story... It is hot an Hawaii, islands are setting … Continue reading Putting on the Ritz…

FCC just a cover for CENSORSHIP

So Trump signed an executive order to police the internetπŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚ So Russia, China, N. Korea dictate what the citizens see an believe... Now Trump wants you to buy into a god that says murder and rape are okay, as long as they do not look like us???? So much for DEMOCRACY in America?..... Sgt USAF … Continue reading FCC just a cover for CENSORSHIP

Be careful what you wish…edited🀯

Up or down, real estate has never ceased to amaze me since my first purchase in 88... This, I am so hoping is my last sale, the kids get stuck with our estate, Wills are done, so if no more writing, they got usπŸ˜³πŸ‘€.... Doing the norm, keeping house show ready an polishing granite, fyi, … Continue reading Be careful what you wish…edited🀯

Missing memory and Seizures…

The headache on the left side of my teporal pariteal area has been consistent... not sure if tooth related or brain... When the headaches got to be annoying and I went back over conversations with the neurologist and the doctor... I decided to do a little research... not something I recommend, self diagnosis, hypochondria is … Continue reading Missing memory and Seizures…

Silent Stroke, when???

Being a brain injury survivor and being stuck with the one thing that seems to have been a constant in my life... honesty... and no matter how often I try and stray from that path, I get yanked back... more than likely, because I have no other choice... the one thing in my life I … Continue reading Silent Stroke, when???

Red, Blue or Green…

Tried posting this and word press and twitter both did not let it... Red pill if you choose to walk through life never owning said life...exactly what the religious and superstitious do.... Blue pill if you choose to sleep through life and never live it, but let others tell you how to live... Green pill... … Continue reading Red, Blue or Green…

German owned word press bite my ass!!!!

Ya know when Germany picks up and reads my blog, I know I am being censored, just like what Zuckerberg did... Isn't it nice to know, that a company not on American soil can tell what I can and can not do and will keep you from seeing a posts, until they review it... Humans … Continue reading German owned word press bite my ass!!!!

Definite Censorship by Word Press…

Well been seeing it for a while and couple other posts I published, Word Press kept from being seen by the public... So you may pay to use this site, but they are humans playing god and frankly.... Hitler was no more god than jesus christ was... Humans at their best and using fear and … Continue reading Definite Censorship by Word Press…

Ironic….

I put a post out there that says Humans are the only Evil on earth.... Not one hit, not one review... Hubby says it showed up on twitter, but not seeing it on Word Press, which where I wrote it and published... Why is it when the truth is out there... You run the other … Continue reading Ironic….

Delay posting by Word Press

Watching in real time for censorship by German owned Word Press... Only gods on earth are dictators or rulers on earth, those with money walking on 2 legs... Humans an Word Press is not posting in real time, they are delaying it, WHY??? What are you afraid of??? TRUTH???? SGT USAF DAV

Humans the only Evil on Earth…

Nice to know, every day earth has been in existence, humans were not here... Since humans came on the scene, they have lied, because to tell truths means to be one with god and that is not possible because... Only god on planet earth... Hitler, Mussolini, Kim Jung Un, Putin, and you... Now can you … Continue reading Humans the only Evil on Earth…

Lions, tigers an bears, oh my…

Watching Smithsonian channel about Mystic Britain.... did I tell you ancestry points to relation to the time of king Arthur, to bad no DNA evidence... That is about as mystical as it gets... French, German, British, Irish, a long line of royalty back to holy roman emperor time of 860AD... yep, tried so many times … Continue reading Lions, tigers an bears, oh my…

Non convulsive status…

Can ya tell headaches are really bugging me, so I am researching.... I be thinking me an neuro should have a long talk about said subject... If it is correct, here is the category I fit into with the abnormal brain wave and elevated TSH... Sometimes I can be my own worse enemy, not trusting … Continue reading Non convulsive status…

Thyroid test…

Doc calls an my levels are the same... When you have thyroid disease, they test you frequently so they can adjust medication, because levels change...its hormones..duh...... 27 years on Levothyroxine and I was being poisoned.... When the hippocampus suffers injury, it can impact the limbic system... an it did just that to me... All Freda … Continue reading Thyroid test…

Botanical Gardens on Hawaii…

We hike this on cool weather days, so come on fall... hope you enjoy the beauty... I am a little tired of all the ugly lately... not clueing it out... just taking a breather... enjoy... https://vimeo.com/user100397074/review/353019400/60bde1a8b4 Well after fighting with Word Press and them kicking me out and making me SIGN IN AGAIN.... honest is … Continue reading Botanical Gardens on Hawaii…

America once was…

America once was a nation that did not promote the killing of each other, an slavery became a battle cry for freedom... America watched an sent jews back to be exterminated..... America in the deep south let the christian KKK decide life an death.... America said no to war an spit on the soldiers returning … Continue reading America once was…

TBI from blunt force trauma… never ending pain…

For the longest time and I am talking decades... oh joy, I'm getting old finally... I couldn't tell you why I had head pain, or why I had migraines or saw halo's or double vision or dizzyness or scalp pain or tooth pain... Now it's making sense... and all Freda had to do, tell the … Continue reading TBI from blunt force trauma… never ending pain…

Censorship on Word Press and Twitter…

At times the post, actually post instantly... at times, not often, in fact, Twitter will delay the post because of certain words... Now Word Press is doing the same... Ya know, when I was using the hot spot crap from AT&T, which is the worse company to do business with... they ripped us off on … Continue reading Censorship on Word Press and Twitter…

Evil on Earth…

The only living creature on earth that is evil... Human... Humans can think and act on what the brain tells them is real... Trumps hate spewed christian rhetoric is PURE EVIL!!! Prove me wrong, PleaseπŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚Not going to happen.... Reality over fantasy and superstitions.... Russia in the white house an US Senate... Sgt USAF DAV I … Continue reading Evil on Earth…

Nature the only god that humans have NO SAY OVER!!!

Nature at its best, life for our food, air for our bodies an a planet to sleep on... No gods, just the universe doing what it does best without human gods... Going to be a gorgeous day on Hawaii an El Nino is gone, back to our trade winds and the true sounds of the … Continue reading Nature the only god that humans have NO SAY OVER!!!

UFOs… not likely???

We are watching a show on Science channel about alien encounters.... Okay, I love a good story like the next person, but aliens interested in us, humans, with our baggage.... Not a snow balls chance in hell.... Likely they, if they exist, has evolved pass the superstitions of gods and mythical beliefs, or they would … Continue reading UFOs… not likely???

Writing halted by lil girl crying for her poppa…

The depression walked in the door on the tears of a child being ripped from her daddy by our government... How can anyone say they believe in god, when such people do cruelty in its name!?? Sgt USAF DAV I Remember Margie...

Beating Neuropathy….

When Mike and I married over 25 years ago, he told me he broke his neck at 18 and is lucky to function, though he has no upper muscles, they are paralyzed, but he is living a full life, minus those abs things... I noticed early on he had trembles and minor shaking, I knew … Continue reading Beating Neuropathy….

Respect the land is not true on Hawaii… edited…

What we found on Makuu an 6th, first car over six months...New rigs this AM.. This is worse on Oahu where its piles of garbage.. and they do not charge for garbage service and going to the dump is free... and turning in crappy vehicles is not that spendy... At least they pulled the engines … Continue reading Respect the land is not true on Hawaii… edited…

Living in Fear…

Ethnic groups in America are getting a taste of what I have lived with my whole life... Living in fear in America because of christians.... Every bone break and nerve damage done to my body, by military and christians... Domestic terrorism has been on American soil since the day christianity showed up on its shores... … Continue reading Living in Fear…

Hawaii is suffering…

Big island has had its fair share of what nature can toss out and humans show the best of humanity... Business's on the island are suffering, and all because a few, mind you it is a few compared to the rest of the population, but a few have put life in a mountain that is … Continue reading Hawaii is suffering…

Labels???

Never got the need to identify with Irish, White, Baptist, Female, Mom, Wife... the list is never ending, because, just with all words.... Humans defined them... I did not ask to be raped or beaten to death... but the humans that did those things and more insist upon a label... Christian.... I have one label.... … Continue reading Labels???

Trump, the narcissistic liar…

Anymore when the man or ANY republican supporter opens the thing they call mouths... We tune out the noise and go hunting for truth, anyplace but the White House, or the U.S. Senate... We are back to the George Wallace days and FOX news should turn in those credentials, they are nothing but a gossip … Continue reading Trump, the narcissistic liar…

Facial Neuralgia or Trigeminal???

I have not done research on this... just enough to question the symptoms I have lived with since I was a teenager... so over 50 years... Numbness, pain, tenderness... You know I been popping 600mg of nsaids for my mouth, because the VA is so concerned after a year of pain, being on these is … Continue reading Facial Neuralgia or Trigeminal???

Moral Leadership???

Biden says Trump has no moral leadership.... well at least Trump lies in plain sight and doesn't hide behind a church that allows the raping of children by priest.... Moral leadership means having morals.... and you can't have those if you believe in gods.... Why??? Because their is no "god" in "Humanity".... only "Human gods", … Continue reading Moral Leadership???

Woes is me… yep we all do it…

Messing around after dinner, trying to teach my old dogs how to howl and I started off with the chant, Woes is me, in a very high annoying loud voice... Baby girl got so excited she jumped into my lap trying to calm me down... Big boy, just kept pacing, looking at me a little … Continue reading Woes is me… yep we all do it…

Strong Women Rock…

My realtor, never met her, she lives on Oahu and she has gone above an beyond helping us get this place sold... We can stay on market while I undergo all the surgeries and recovery... Buyer will just be informed our exit date, which will be after my last appointment with dental surgeon... Wow... she's … Continue reading Strong Women Rock…

Punt, maybe we still sell the house???

Realtor responded to my letter requesting removal from the market... honest, some people don't have a clue how much knowledge is in between my ears... but you know what... I gave her the low down on the up coming eye surgeries, dental implants... yada, yada, yada...... No moving after Nov 1... because air fare doubles … Continue reading Punt, maybe we still sell the house???

Truth… What is the word’s Value???

I looked up to see if I could find any kind of study that was grounded in facts and not theology nonsense... and frankly, I couldn't find anything that said, "Truth Mattered".... I found plenty on how people like Trump and his base, use the word only to their advantage and if you disagree with … Continue reading Truth… What is the word’s Value???

Thyroid damage….edited…

twitter.com/adorablespite/status/1158805992840323077 This link is a NIH report about damage to a thyroid via blunt force trauma and we know this baby had plenty of that... Look at the neck and face covered in bruises... Now I am curious if a scan like PET, MRI or along that line, would it show damage to my thyroid … Continue reading Thyroid damage….edited…

Never Mess with a Momma Chicken!!! Ouch#!$@& edited…

Go out for our morning walk and the hen that BB got her teeth into, has a new clutch of babies... here we go again and they are on our property and how they got thru the chicken wire is what we figure out next... So Mike is holding the dogs back by the fenced … Continue reading Never Mess with a Momma Chicken!!! Ouch#!$@& edited…

Real estate on Big Island…

I bought my first real estate in 88... Sold it under 30 days... The longest I have ever had property on the market, right now over 90 days an no movement... This is my 7th property I have bought and sold since 88... News said we are moving properties, but when you price yourself out … Continue reading Real estate on Big Island…

Ambidextrous… I thought so…

I doubt this has anything to do with anything... but my aunt Tiny said when I told her how the family tried to kill me her words... My name... you been through so much??? Now what the hell did she mean by that??? and I wonder if she has a clue how Freda used Tiny … Continue reading Ambidextrous… I thought so…

Anger is subsiding, some….

Am I angry??? or just pissed off that the living is praying to a god that man made, just so they don't have to admit what they did to a child and how those cruel evil things they did, left me with a broken body??? Hmmmmm, not sure... The shootings are indicative of racism and … Continue reading Anger is subsiding, some….

Off the market…

It's official... took the house off the market... after today's stock market and how they reacted to China devaluing there currency... things are likely to get dicey sooner than I thought they would... and right now, we are good where we are at... Hawaii, with all it's little problems, is a good place to live … Continue reading Off the market…

Walking Back in Time…

I just love my hubby... he is really working hard to listen when I go off on one of my journey's... such a sweet heart and he's going to talk with someone.... so what does that have to do with this confab???? Walking back in time... that's easy peasy.... As I understand the chaos I … Continue reading Walking Back in Time…

What I Troll Online….

Want to know what I troll??? The only thing I troll??? OBITUARIES...... Always looking for those that had hands on in raping me, beating me to death and most of all those that tried to own me.... I troll the obituaries.... True story.... Sgt USAF DAV Waiting for men in power to no longer have … Continue reading What I Troll Online….

Trump & Mulvaney want us to what???edited, oops

Holy crap on a cracker, I have seen and heard it all... but according to Trump, Mulvaney and the rest of the republican yahoos... we are not suppose to trust our ears or eyes... that what Trump says is not what he means... but Trump will tell you what he said is what he means???!!! … Continue reading Trump & Mulvaney want us to what???edited, oops

Aha moments, hunting for a paticular one…

I get I can write, IF I apply myself and stay disciplined to the story line I am writing... I also know, I can't write about anything I don't know, and I am still trying to figure out how I did school with so many brain injuries, I don't remember much of it... school that … Continue reading Aha moments, hunting for a paticular one…

Nightmare Muscles… & Bangers… ugh!!!

Ever have a muscle in the left side in the back about where the Rhomboid muscles are at...knot up like a sailors knot and stick out of the tissue??? Back in 2000 or there about, I had a muscle in that area, that knotted up so bad, it protruded through the tissue and when we … Continue reading Nightmare Muscles… & Bangers… ugh!!!

Praying to your GOD, NEVER stopped Violence….

Listening to the govenor of Ohio that you pray to god that violence never happens??? REALLY???? What planet are you on dude... Psychology will tell you, the same psychology you use govenor to lock people up.... RELIGION IS DELUSIONAL!!! so which is it govenor???? If gods ever did anything, it was sit from their lofty … Continue reading Praying to your GOD, NEVER stopped Violence….

Censorship by WP & Twitter???

Twitter posts immediately, though that only started this morning... so the censorship by them seems to have stopped, no delay on posting... Not so with Word Press, it is still on a 3 second delay, which means someone is reviewing before it hits internet!!!!! GO AHEAD GERMAN OWNED COMPANY, YOUR NAZISM IS STARTING TO SHOW … Continue reading Censorship by WP & Twitter???

White nationalist in the white house…

Get up this morning, after days of storms and hear that another mass shooting by white men who profess to be christian... If that does not scare you... You are not living on earth... Religion is the ROOT OF ALL EVIL.... Just ask every child touched by a priest or preacher or christian.... Trump is … Continue reading White nationalist in the white house…

I am attacking the Idea…. get educated…

Turned the news on to see if we heard about anyone we know from back where we lived near El Paso and some yahoo out of Georgia is on there and he says we got to stop people from attacking people, etc and he used the word religion???? Okay yahoo, obviously with that fancy college … Continue reading I am attacking the Idea…. get educated…

My Identity…. Human…

We had turned the news off, couldn't take anymore about people being shot, just because they don't think, look, live, breath, eat or shit the way some psycho does... I have a beef a major beef with anyone who identifies with anything other than human.... just that simple... You want a label, so you can … Continue reading My Identity…. Human…

Mass shooting, gave me back my life…

It breaks my heart to hear about El Paso... they may be crazy on the roads, but that area of the U.S. is one of the safest... lived in Las Cruces for 8 years.... and it hurts to know that children may be victims once again... On Nov 5, 2017 a young deranged airman killed … Continue reading Mass shooting, gave me back my life…

Head Pain, never left the building….

We may get up at 5AM, but it could be 9AM before I get lotion on my face and do my routine... somehow, we always get side tracked into something.... and as usual I was putting on face lotion, and touched the right temporal part of my face and said ouch and as I arch … Continue reading Head Pain, never left the building….

Censorship by Zuckerberg… have ya noticed his skin color??? edited….

I had more than one page shut down by god Zuckerberg and his thin skinned moderators, who are likely chrisitan, because the only thing I go after.... Christians..... and why do I go after Christians??? don't ya just love the labels some humans insist on... I guess being Human just does not have value anymore.. … Continue reading Censorship by Zuckerberg… have ya noticed his skin color??? edited….

Suicide… I never tried… edited…

Watching the story about the latest Kennedy tragedy and when you grew up listening about that family, you turn the page... they are no different from you or me... just more money.... but the suicide issue got me to thinking about something Freda said and I never forgot it... Back in 2000, before we left … Continue reading Suicide… I never tried… edited…

Flag at half mast…

I am sorry the Kennedys lost another person to death... but... to put the flag at half mast for a civilian who has done volunteer work...give me a break.... She never put a military uniform on and we lost a couple military and saw nothing on line or in the news about those lives being … Continue reading Flag at half mast…

Kupuna an Aeina, Aloha no more…

It has been rig after rig with flags flying up and down Makuu street, blasting the rap noise they call music... not Hawaiian music, rap, with tons of bass so loud, we can hear it on the toilet... Aloha is no more, and only humans can take a mountain, made of rock and dirt... and … Continue reading Kupuna an Aeina, Aloha no more…

The night the lights went out in Big Springs, Texas…

I awoke to a scene… "Freda is crying, her mother has just died and at first she didn't want to go to the funeral, but with all that had gone on in the last 9 months, she wanted an escape away from the reminder… they killed the 13-year-old child that stood before her covered in … Continue reading The night the lights went out in Big Springs, Texas…

I Remember When….

There are moments in time, when I wish I did and than again, not so much... I mean come on, into S&M, has never been my cup of tea... Reading about stroke and TIA is confusing and interesting... and I am beginning to see a pattern of TIA caused mini strokes or something along that … Continue reading I Remember When….

Continuing issues with WP…

When software does what it shouldn't, I usually dump the software, and with word press, getting close, but no cigar... I paid for another year.... neaner, neaner.... Anyhow... the icon shows up in my active area, and I will click on it to close the word press, but not sign out... well it's back to … Continue reading Continuing issues with WP…

My Lot in Life… edited…

As I am doing my morning thing.... after our mile walk... I am thinking oh joy, I got to put my partials in, so I can eat and maintain some facial expressions... the more teeth you loose, the less definition your face has, if you do not replace with a partial or dentures or implants... … Continue reading My Lot in Life… edited…

WORD PRESS MAKES ME SIGN IN AGAIN!!!!!!!!!! WTF!!! edited…

Had planned to write something pertaining to the injuries and I had alredy been on the Ipad looking at my blog site... power the computer up... let it sit, because of the satellite delay with connecting.... and you got it... let it do it's thing.... AND WORD PRESS MADE ME LOG IN AGAIN!!!! CENSORSHIP ALIVE … Continue reading WORD PRESS MAKES ME SIGN IN AGAIN!!!!!!!!!! WTF!!! edited…

Rain we will take…

Living on Hawaii, in our area, we catch our rain water... and my skin, even for an ole lady, is very soft... not something I am used too.... neither is Mike.... and it tastes good too, multi filtered and sterilized by UV before it makes it to us... The catchment, is what the water tank … Continue reading Rain we will take…

Hippocampus… and memories…

Not knowing about the strokes may have protected me from something, but you got me on what that could have been and I bet that is the excuse Freda uses... honest you can not fix stupid, when you buy into the con.... When the Air Force sent me for bone scans on Japan, after I … Continue reading Hippocampus… and memories…

Word Press Makes Me Log In to get to my Site!!! AGAIN!!!

Well once again I had planned to write something about brain injuries and all these other just oh so fascinating subjects and word press blocked me... and of course made me sign in... but ya know... I was able to post via the Ipad, so I wander how long it will be, before they make … Continue reading Word Press Makes Me Log In to get to my Site!!! AGAIN!!!

Word Press blocks my access???

Funny how I can get on Ipad an do crap... Get on PC and Word Press blocks my access... Now I run pro an encrypted and the ONLY SOFTWARE I HAVE ISSUES WITH..... Word Press... True story about censorship in America being controlled by other countries... Still think you are safe in America??? Sgt USAF … Continue reading Word Press blocks my access???

50 years later, I won….

50 years ago, in Big Springs, Texas...was the last time I had long hair past my bra line...13 years old.... 50 years ago I lost my childhood at the hands of christians beating me to death.... I may be 65 years old this month, but I never lost my desire to beat my hair length … Continue reading 50 years later, I won….

DNA Testing… 23&Me a good one..

I did my DNA test back in 2010... and a year later we did Mikes... and a year before that, in 2010, Mikes doctor ordered an extensive test, looking for the same thing 23&Me does, but in more detail.... so I tell you this... 23&Me results on Mike were the same as the $1,000 Insurance … Continue reading DNA Testing… 23&Me a good one..

Emergency dental done, release form signed for Senator….

The clinic was a little surprised the Senator may contact their office... not my first rodeo... I used my Senator in CA, when getting no child support that was court ordered... such a gentleman my 2nd kiddo, daddy... and well off... I used my Senator, when fighting the VA system the first time and have … Continue reading Emergency dental done, release form signed for Senator….

I have a “Condition”…

Please some one, any one... come up with a device that will silence the TV automatically when Donald the brainless wonder Trump comes on TV for any REASON!!!! Please I BEG YOU!!!! My condition... thanks to christians giving me so many brain injuries... I am unfiltered... this is the gift christians gave to me.... I … Continue reading I have a “Condition”…

Neuropathy, it’s nightly damage…

When I was a kid, I thought it odd that I didn't sweat like everyone else.... and when I went into the military, even at basic training... sweat just wasn't something I did and I didn't think anything about it until..... 2013.... One morning I woke up and our bedroom smelled of sweat, didn't understand … Continue reading Neuropathy, it’s nightly damage…

Life is not about how Fair it is…

I hear this all the time... Life is so unfair??? Are you for real??? Who the hell said life was suppose to be fair??? Only the religious believe that life has a balance between fair and unfair.... Reality of life.... Choices.... The choices I make, may very well have a impact on your life... regardless … Continue reading Life is not about how Fair it is…