A Shock to see in handcuffs…

I have to admit, it was a shock to my senses when I saw Cosby in handcuffs… for just a flash of a moment I picture Don (dad) as the one being led away by the police with his head bowed in shame…. fantasy… it does help to heal, as long as you know, it is fantasy…

So many victims and survivors of rape and domestic violence… So many, who will never have justice…

My depression snuck back in on me, only because of the subject of rape being front in the news and social media…

I relived every rape, over the last few days… 

That is the one thing about rape… it steals you blind and leaves you looking off into nothing… because the rapist left you felling like nothing…

It is a struggle to climb out of the pit that the rapist put you in… some never heal and find other avenues to cope that end in self-destruction… all because someone thought they had a right to lay hands upon us….

As long as the church and the president of the United States protect rapist… 

America will be known as the nation that allows rape….

So much for an enlightened people…

My government has already shown me, they protect the rapist… Not Americans…. I applaud the win against Cosby… Now Trump, Moore, Kavanaugh & Thomas… need to be held accountable…. again, my fantasy… I have watched those in power abuse it… I was at the receiving end of that power one day… but I got the last laugh…

Rated 100% disabled veteran… I proved I did nothing wrong and proved all the wrong they did…

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I Remember…. Margie…

Not for sale…

My humanity has never been for sale…

Not for family, friend, neighbor, religion or country….

When the GOP blatantly attack a victim of rape… We are no longer living in a democracy… We live in a dictatorship based on corrupt politics and corrupt religion….

Sgt USAF DAV rape survivor, Vance AFB 1979!

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I Remember … Margie….

Rape me once, shame on you….

Rape me twice, shame on me… rape me three times…. reasonably morbid thought process, but after hearing the news last night before bed that another accuser has come out against Kavanaugh… I was jumping up in down in my seat… Another witness to back up the professor….

Why is it, when men yell rape, the sky is falling… but when someone puts their hands on a female, it is okay… this is the bible’s teaching… make the women subservient or what ever… when in truth… Women used to play a major role in ruling countries centuries ago… then christianity came along and those in power decided to re-write the scrolls and make the bible a thing of servitude for the women… yep, sounds like America to me…

All this talk about rape, has made my own home interesting… Mike was a typical man, when we married… could not keep his hands to himself… I get it… don’t like it and after 24 years of marriage, he truly understands it…

As Sally Fields said… how do you learn to be intimate, after rape… how do you learn to love and trust, after rape… how do you look in the mirror without disgust, after rape… how do you live life after rape????

There are so many of us out there that have been on the receiving end of people in power… be it parent, friend, neighbor, school mate or stranger or someone you are serving in the military along side… they all welded power over the victim, as they took what they wanted… no regard for humanity… it was all about the appendage between their legs… and that tool has never had any brains or heart…. It takes being human to have those qualities…

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I Remember… Margie….

Rape has no Humanity…

Abuse of any kind is void of humanity… Just look at President Trump and his vicious attack on a rape victim/survivor…. Sad to see our republican party try and justify demonizing victims of rape, with the head hunter Trump leading the pack of wolves, all the while saying they are christian….

Rape is devoid of humanity…. It takes a human to stand up to rape and domestice violence…

It takes a man or woman to become a predator and abuser…

But god will forgive them… 

Will America???

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I Remember… Margie….

Memory of little girls…. before the rapes started….

I have written about my sister in this story, she plays a pivotal part in the unmasking of the sadistic behavior in a Air Force christian family… I am trying very hard to push religion out of this story, but, I can not… It too plays a pivotal role in Margies Song….

The memory that has been bothering me for a week now has to do with my sister… we had a bond once and it was not a close bond… it never was, nor could it ever be… I could not compete with my mother, who was more interested in molding her mini me… my younger sister….

The memory that keeps coming into my view frame, is two little girls about the age of 4 to 8 years old… I can not pin it down closer yet, that is part of journey I am exploring…. putting the memories in the proper time frame… hypnosis is my next adventure after we get home…

As for the memory, it is two little girls giggling, laying in the bottom bunk or a bed big enough for the two girls and they would gently run their finger on each others back, all the while telling secrets that only little girls tell and drifting off to sleep, being comforted by your only friend…. and the memory is gone…

Things changed either after the TV show interview or the boob incident… but the sister changed and from my perspective, she grabbed hold of man-made religion, because she could not face her participation in the abuse of Margie…. so she chose to hide from reality and jump on the band wagon to destroy her once best friend….

Reality is a very cold bed fellow, one that has entered my world repeatedly over the last 11 months… the anniversary of my getting my memories back is fast approaching…. 11/7/17 is when I heard Margies Song… her voice, ever-growing stronger, her personality pushing its way back into my life and her warped sense of humor that has kept this 64-year-old heart alive… laughter, always an important part of my life….

The president and so many in power, demonizing the rape victim is systemic in society, because their god will forgive them… but will America???

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I Remember…. Margie…..

Rape is not POLITICAL….it is about TRUTH…

President Trump has been accused of sexual assault…

For those who do not understand what the word “assault or sexual” means, let me enlighten you…

Laying your hands on another person or using words in any form to cause harm, be it sexual or domestic violence it is not okay and never has been… 

I was not asked before I was raped… Not at 11 years old and not at 39 years old… I was NEVER ASKED, before the other person laid their hands on me…

There is no politics in rape… Rape is about the person who is welding their power over another person, so that they may control that person and get what they want out of that person, regardless of consequences….

That is a rapist….

That is Trump, Kavanaugh, Moore and any other human out there that think they have a say about another persons body…

You do not, nor have you ever, nor will you ever have a say…. the word is NO…. No one has a right to lay hands on another human… NO ONE… not by hitting and not by sexual assault…

If you believe that you have a right to abuse another human, you are a rapist and predator… A rapist of the body, soul and mind…. a predator that inflicts harm… as we are finding, everyone one of these men mentioned, claim to be christian… and they demonize the victims….  

You really can not fix stupid… and the people who support these rapist…well, we all know what kind of human they are… predators… they always run in packs….

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I Remember… Margie….