WP you got real problems….

Just got up, an Ipad was auto updating an WP was an app updating... It said post failed, media uploaded, and all I did was open the app??? Sure this application is as safe as face book....NOT.... Want to know who is running the planet, the country with the best hackers.... Sgt USAF DAV

TBI, the Unfiltered Mouth…

I truly wish I could tell you if I have always been some what, likely, totally or completely unfiltered my whole life... you could say a TBI can give you the impression the person is Autistic, when in the real world of brain injuries... you just have no filter or you choose not to have … Continue reading TBI, the Unfiltered Mouth…

Sheppard AFB Psychatrist lied circa 1983…. WP still not publishing instantly… censorship at it’s best…. edited….

I am still adjusting to the fact that the shrink I saw in the Air Force flat out lied, to cover up rape and attempted murder... and if they were doing it when I died at 13 years old at Webb AFB in 1967 and again in 1983 with my own kids... don't ya think … Continue reading Sheppard AFB Psychatrist lied circa 1983…. WP still not publishing instantly… censorship at it’s best…. edited….

Kill or eliminate this yuppie Electoral College vote and make American judges accountable….

Because of this electoral college crap, christians are destroying our democracy... throw in the fact if an American judge is being investigated and they resign...they just became above the law.... Want to know who is destroying our democracy.... christians like Trump and judges who take the laws and twist them, so you an yours sit … Continue reading Kill or eliminate this yuppie Electoral College vote and make American judges accountable….

Neuropathy, NOT Fibromyalgia….

When my younger brother David told me he had Fibromyalgia, I was just a little perplexed... I had been diagnoised in 98 by the VA Rheumatologist and I thought at that time the specialist got it wrong and he did... Sorry Dr. Sheer, but you were way off base and since my brother told me … Continue reading Neuropathy, NOT Fibromyalgia….

DNA, who I am, not what YOU claim me to be….

https://you.23andme.com/published/reports/fd2df054b96a4f32/?share_id=aa967c9d5fc84924 The link will show you my DNA makeup.... mostly European, but for the trace ancestry... the one I am most proud of... African.... I watched the McCarthy tapes, and was not surprised by the bigotry and fear of the christians at that time... I watched many tapes about the holocaust and will never understand … Continue reading DNA, who I am, not what YOU claim me to be….

Trumps Con, same as McCarthy’s Con… nothing new with religious con’s… edited just for Word Press….

Spent last night looking at the real estate on the market here on the big island of Hawaii and I looked primarily at our area, and not happy about what I found, but it just re-enforces that our first offer when we went on the market... we got conned.... there was no bidding wars going … Continue reading Trumps Con, same as McCarthy’s Con… nothing new with religious con’s… edited just for Word Press….

Repressed Memories, the Struggle is beyond the twilight zone…

Though one shrink thought I had the Edetic ability, I never knew that there could be so many levels, forms or memory making process's..... the brain, best toy evolution ever gave us... if you know boredom, well, you obviously do not know your brain.... I knew around the age of 8 that I was different, … Continue reading Repressed Memories, the Struggle is beyond the twilight zone…

60 years of PTSD….

I never got why Freda treated me like I was ignorant, until I caught her in a lie, when I was a pre-teen in Bonita, Louisiana.... the place she got pregnant... That was before the stroke and near death at 13, after the birth of my half sister... she really should get a DNA test, … Continue reading 60 years of PTSD….

Good Morning from Hawaii

Regardless the moron who can not open their hole and speak truth.... The sun will rise... Not by prayer, not by human.... Nature, the true gods of the universe, and a whole lot smarter than Trump or his base.... Sgt USAF DAV

Watching Battle Bots, the new Friday night lightsπŸ˜‚πŸ˜³

We both get a kick out of watching this show and American Ninja.... Trying to find anything on entertainment that is not biased, bigoted or racist.... Trump comes on an we can not change the channel fast enough.... True story... Sgt USAF DAV I Remember... Margie...

Love, when I do dumb dumb…

Speculating, going back over conversations and it dawned on me, what dentist said was not what I thought I read in the letter from the VA... Nope, I got it wrong.... Reason they wanted impressions, is some pencil pusher makes health care decisions.... Been there done that and it took 10 years to get a … Continue reading Love, when I do dumb dumb…

Word Press malfunction???

Have you noticed an issue when you write a blog and you want to go back to the other page and you sit and click on the arrow icon on the left top side of your screen.... well I can't exit this draft page of the blog, without hitting the Window option and going back … Continue reading Word Press malfunction???

Who OWNS Word Press??? Trump Censorship or Christian Censorship??? edited….

Well had to sign into this dumb ass web site again... I lost count after 6 sign ins the last few days.... Censorship alive and well with a company YOU pay!!!! Got me on the censorship, other than I got under the very thin skin of people who profess to be christians, when in fact … Continue reading Who OWNS Word Press??? Trump Censorship or Christian Censorship??? edited….

Cataract Surgery, 2nd Opinion…

So glad I did not let the VA approved surgeon operate on me... and If I had waited for Tri-west to get me another surgeon, surgery would be next year... they are slower than molasses at the Hilo VA office and the pencil pusher is going to find out, just like the VA directors I … Continue reading Cataract Surgery, 2nd Opinion…

Life without Cuddles….

Enid, OK circa 1978.... Cuddles, I have been searching my memories of my childhood, those that have come back and I know are true memories and I can only find one memory, which would put us sometime in the area of 1959, give or take a year... and the memory is in Bonita, Lousiana.... The … Continue reading Life without Cuddles….

Chaplin excises demons out of CongressπŸ˜³πŸ˜³πŸ˜³πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚

For real, the dude prayed to excise demons out of congressπŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚... Hey chaplin, want to excise the demons out of government, "OUTLAW" your raping, lying, thieving, murdering religion!!!! That will happen when hell freezes over and since hell is in your imagination... The raping, lying, thieving murdering religious will continue, because.... You can't fix stupid, … Continue reading Chaplin excises demons out of CongressπŸ˜³πŸ˜³πŸ˜³πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚

America’s rejection of Trump will be???

If you think about it, and I was alive during the hippy days, is that how you spell Hippy??? Anyway... I remember when Nixon was brought down, old enough and smart enough to know, this was just history repeating it's self... remember the days of Elliott Ness??? Clinton reminded us that men have a habit … Continue reading America’s rejection of Trump will be???

Word Press Censorship…

Well they proved it... depending on the words I use in my blog, will depend on upon if the blog posts immediately or Word Press employees read it first, before they let it hit the internet... IF CENSORSHIP DOES NOT SCARE YOU, I SUGGEST YOU GO BACK AND LOOK AT ALL THE DOCUMENTARY ABOUT THE … Continue reading Word Press Censorship…

Trumps con, gave me my answers….

I have been trying for over a year now, since I saw the mental health nurse for some counseling, basically give me a direction to go for getting my answers and she was helpful, but one thing she said about Freda got me really thinking about Freda's con.... her game, much like what Trump is … Continue reading Trumps con, gave me my answers….

Presidential Christians, not your best face for christianity…..

When you watch the con of christians in action, ya just got to ask??? What planet are you from???? Trump, Clinton an Nixon, all profess to be christian...yet they LIED, STOLE, CHEATED, RAPED, now murder, they never been accused of... but ya got to admit, its just a prime example of what christianity looks like … Continue reading Presidential Christians, not your best face for christianity…..

Stepford Wives on CNN…edited

Just wow... Honest to goodness, just wow... I happen to be flipping channels on my break and came across a CNN interview with I think 8 republican women... Ya know, I might of just as well been talking to Mikes mom & sis or my mom and sisters... bigotry from christians at its best, just … Continue reading Stepford Wives on CNN…edited

KellyAnn Conway LIES!!!

Before Trump, veterans were actually getting good health care, eyes, ears, nose, throat, teeth, surgeries..... After Trump became president, it was hurry up and DIE!!! As a 100% Disabled U. S. Air Force veteran for the last 35 years I have been in the VA system.... and!!!! Until OBAMA... we were dying, because of the … Continue reading KellyAnn Conway LIES!!!

Housing bubble on Big Island, Hawaii….

Been there done that, when the collapse happened in 2008.... Bought one house and in 2010, bought a 2nd house.... Sold both in 2016 at a profit, not much of one, but still profit... That was in Las Cruces, New Mexico.... Now they are saying the housing bubble on the big island is happening and … Continue reading Housing bubble on Big Island, Hawaii….

I Live by What I Think, not what you believe…. #NotMyPresident…

Trump the christian racist... is that what you think America is??? Salem witch trials were based on rhetoric like Trumps words... Holocaust was based on words like Trumps..... Trump has become a demagogue or the latest boogie man to walk earth... Well christians you asked for a anti christ... He's all yours..... #NOTMYPRESIDENT.... Sgt USAF … Continue reading I Live by What I Think, not what you believe…. #NotMyPresident…

Censorship by WP???

I have my settings for immediate publish, yet, this thing comes up and says 3 minutes... but the setting's say immediately??? So what the HELL word press, are you now censoring your customers???? Why the delay of 3 minutes for my blog to publish???? I tell ya, seen this in other countries, when they don't … Continue reading Censorship by WP???

Face Book & Messenger are no more in our household… edited

After the censorship by a white christian called Zuckerberg... the writing was on the wall for the division of America by racist like him and Trump.... Men in power, protecting men in power... just like my tag line above says.... Until women decide they are tired of being told what to do with their body … Continue reading Face Book & Messenger are no more in our household… edited

Rumbling at night….

Every morning, I walk around and look for things out of place.... Meaning... it has to have moved a inch or more from it's original location.... Because our home is built on stacked lava rock, with a nicely poured foundation, you can feel heavy equipment when it rolls by the property IF... you have your … Continue reading Rumbling at night….

Thanks, but no Thanks….

I have had fun writing... It is something I always thought of doing, even as a kid... but, my parents had other plans for me, starting with the first brain injury before I turned 6 years old.... so much is coming back... The Neurologist was so dead on, he did know his stuff, just likes … Continue reading Thanks, but no Thanks….

How to be a good person…

Just open your eyes, mind and heart..... Dummy down with religion, you might as well crawl back up your own ass... without humanity, religion has no value except in raping, lying, stealing, cheating and murdering your way through life.... just look at Trump.... If you are good with people like Trump... we will be watching … Continue reading How to be a good person…

Christian Charity, just a cover…

Missionary goes to Kenya and uses his cover as a christian to rape.... Welcome to the real world of christianity...... TimesUp #MeToo WhyIDidntTell, gee ya think???. Sgt USAF DAV I Remember Margie and the 1st CHRISTIAN that beat her to death....

Holy cow….

Some how, some way my apple ID ended up on Mikes phone, the phone Itunes has never recognized since we bought it, and of course I had to back his phone up to the cloud and that was under his ID!!! Panicked, he has to go buy a tool anyway, so I tell him go … Continue reading Holy cow….

Yippeeeeeee done with AT&T and hate APPLE!!! edited

After fighting AT&T and Apple... Both phones are now active and working!!!! We now use Consumer Cellular for half the price of what AT&T charged and even with my military discount...., talk about a rip off company, never liked AT&T, but they bought our last carrier an we traveled too much to dump them... well … Continue reading Yippeeeeeee done with AT&T and hate APPLE!!! edited

Waiting on Trumpism to implode American Business’s!!!

What a 24 hours.... Nightmare with AT&T and lil bro works for them, so go figure on that cluster fuck.... Got my phone registered with Consumer Cellular for half the money AT&T wanted and we have NO SERVICE on our cell phones because of a problem with CC!!!! I am so over tech companies like … Continue reading Waiting on Trumpism to implode American Business’s!!!

What is going on with the internet….

Frustration is beyond where I was... but the sweetest ladies, at AT&T, 2 of them, both very articulate and spoke excellent english that I could understand.... helped me get this far.... After I got my Iphone unlocked and did all I needed to do so we can change carriers, I started on Mikes phone and … Continue reading What is going on with the internet….

AT&T Run don’t walk to another carrier….

We paid off our phones and own them out right... and I have a zero balance on my current bill and no contract... Yesterday I requested them unlock the phones so we could dump this republican biggoted company.... spending 2 days on the phone driving all the way into town to the AT&T store is … Continue reading AT&T Run don’t walk to another carrier….

WHY??? edited

We lived and owned two homes in Las Cruces, New Mexico... for 8 years we lived on the border between Mexico and America... We also spent 6 months in Mexico one year and lived among the people of that nation.... We had neighbors in New Mexico, that have the cutest little boy I called little … Continue reading WHY??? edited

Christians are killing the only god known to humans….

You watch as the bigots who have done the worse to humans, are now doing the worse to the only real true god....our planet.....and when they are done destroying all that are not mentally ill like them, they will destroy our only home... Earth.... You can not fix stupid, when you believe a god will … Continue reading Christians are killing the only god known to humans….

Warning….

When you approach my property, a sign will greet you... "IF YOU BELIEVE IN GODS? Leave now or you will get to meet that god..... Never will my home or any place I reside, NEVER will a christian or any person who believes in gods, you shall never cross my space, or I will endeavor … Continue reading Warning….

NO CHRISITAN will ever cross my threshold….

Watching the news this morning and listenting to the lawyer about the border and detention facilities, got my tears flowing and it was hard to control them... I know what those children will have to face in life.... I know the torment and torture they will go through.... All because of CHRISTIANS!!! TimesUP #MeToo WhyIDidntTell, … Continue reading NO CHRISITAN will ever cross my threshold….

One Day at a Time….

I took up that philosophy many decades ago.... even though I am a planner or prepper, you can choose the label, I only wear one.... Human..... Yesterday and the few days before as we transitioned to a life minus the marijuana.... has been testy, but expected... any time you break a habit, the brain revolts... … Continue reading One Day at a Time….

Hey Racist…..guess what???

Only one species on this planet that has the ability to be racist.... Those that believe color or place of birth mean jack shit.... Frankly, may I call ya Frank??? Human is the only label I wear....I don't hide behind your man made god, I stand on it.... Earth..... Racist are free to leave the … Continue reading Hey Racist…..guess what???

Acosta out, now for the big cheese…

Trump is a sexual predator, so is Kavanaugh.... When those rwo morons are out of office and under arrest... ONLY AT THAT TIME WILL.... AMERICA BE GREAT AGAIN!!!! Sgt USAF DAV #MeToo WhyIDidntTell I Remember Margie, an shes coming for ya....

Long day over…edited….

Well surprise about the tooth implants and I have appt next week for impressions....or casts as they called them, we always called them impressions... Tooth extracted today an was very impressed with the surgeon and staff... Kona must have the rudest residents that go to Costco...those peeps will run you over with a cart, so … Continue reading Long day over…edited….

Pot and PTSD….

Some time today, the last of our plants goes up in smoke... ever see that movie... never laughed so hard and the other day we rolled up next to someone and all of a sudden they open the windows of their rig and the smell just wafted over all of us at the stop light … Continue reading Pot and PTSD….

Texas, Big Springs, I Remember…. Webb AFB…edited….

Last night was interesting and I really did not like the direction my brain went, but the realization of what the trigger was made me ponder, how long can we both tolerate that??? Yesterday Mike intruded into my space and I went off on him... Bored out of my mind, all my craft stuff packed, … Continue reading Texas, Big Springs, I Remember…. Webb AFB…edited….

2 days in a row, had to sign into this damn Word Press web site!!!!

Okie dokie, not that I am completely pissed again, I had to sign into this web site again, in less 24 hours!!! There is no excuse for this crap!!!! I have not changed my setup, nor have I changed anything with any of my other sites or set up... yet for some reason, WORD PRESS … Continue reading 2 days in a row, had to sign into this damn Word Press web site!!!!

Why am I signing in so much????

Okay, I get it... the internet is under attack and IP's rotate and yada yada yada.... but unless I do some specific things on my end.... I should not have to sign into this web site!!!! and I had something cool to right about and the thought... gone..... Word Press has become a royal pain … Continue reading Why am I signing in so much????

PTSD Caused by President Trump…..

Go for it, say what you want, but I lived it and I know for a fact what Trump is doing is creating the biggest mental health crisis since the Nazis exterminated Jews..... I lived in constant fear, though I had no clue why as I did not remember the abuse and that fear walked … Continue reading PTSD Caused by President Trump…..

Voters…

People usually vote to better all, not just themselves and before religion came along that worked.....and then came along white mans god and all of a sudden, we have wars and massive corruption in American government because of christians..... So what you going to do??? Well, as far as I am concerned, that tide started … Continue reading Voters…

6 quarts of hot tea😳πŸ€ͺ

Yesterday, before dinner, I made 6 quarts of ice tea, as usual the hot way... After a hour an some cool down I start to put the pitchers in the frig...one in each hand....Can you guess how dirty my nice clean frig got an how far the tea spread??? It took us a half hour … Continue reading 6 quarts of hot tea😳πŸ€ͺ

PTSD, goofball depression???

Honestly, now that I know about the stroke from when I died at 13 at Webb AFB.... in Big Springs, Texas... I get the depression and it was exaserbated by Levothyroxine... the drug designed to control women and believe me, that is exactly what it did to me for over 25 years.... been off the … Continue reading PTSD, goofball depression???

Academy or Emmy goes to??? edited..

When you think about it... I put the most amazing performance of my life on for the last 60 years.... yet the war paint was worn by others as I did not hide... I was always in plain sight and had to look for those hiding in plain sight.... I have asked Mike on numerous … Continue reading Academy or Emmy goes to??? edited..

Enabling…. over it… 2 blogs deleted…

Ya know, I slept okay because not that many people shot fireworks off near us and they did change the laws last year, so... we turned AC off and opened up.... now what the hell does that have to do with enabling... nada... Watching the news this morning and I am to the point, get … Continue reading Enabling…. over it… 2 blogs deleted…

Our 4th….

Last year our neighbors lost two pups to vehicle hits because of fireworks.... This is where ours spend every 4th of July, regardless where we live.... As a veteran, fireworks and I no longer like each other...I can relate to my pets.... Our recliners are full as we watch a movie an its past our … Continue reading Our 4th….

Someone stop the insanity!!! ..edited..

Well no clue what I had planned to write, I had to fight to get into my own web site so I could write and by the time I did the damn sign in and went hunting for my damn cell phone so I could tell the damn notification it was me and to let … Continue reading Someone stop the insanity!!! ..edited..

The loss of sensation is spreading…. edited…

It's ironic... I remember looking at Freda's pictures and came across one of me at about 6 months old and it was the only time I was smiling and had any fat on my bones.... This picture taken around 15 months old, already shows the mind set of the toddler, who had already experienced abuse... … Continue reading The loss of sensation is spreading…. edited…

Happy 4th July to real Americans….

What is a real American??? A person who has no desire to discriminate or be biased based on skin color or sexual orientation....or land of origin.... That is a true American..... Now peeps like Trump an religious morons, those are the hater infiltrators that have been worming their way into our fabric called society an … Continue reading Happy 4th July to real Americans….

Turned off, but Tuned In…..

I quit face book last week on both pages after they censorsed me... isn't it amazing those border guards were exploiting and doing the worse and posting it on face book, but because I got under one of my christian relatives skin, I got censored... because if you think I believe I got singled out … Continue reading Turned off, but Tuned In…..

TBI an learning, never dull….

Realtor challenged me to learn 2 new apps in a very short 24 hours, in between everything else I am doing..... For those who never had a brain injury, go take a nap... only us lucky ones get this challenge..... Before the brain injuries, learning was easy...but by the time the boob incident happened, not … Continue reading TBI an learning, never dull….

I got a feeling….

My instincts have gotten me through 65 years of life... not bad, when so many made every attempt to end said life and all at the hands of chrisitans... yep, still got no use for humans that buy into gods... just tells me, that closet of theirs has more skeletons than the biology lab at … Continue reading I got a feeling….

Amazon sucks…

I ordered a few things for the new lamps an the finials are sitting in California, but, they have been delivered??? and I am on Hawaii!!! After talking with them Saturday an being told you will have them Monday an Monday has come an gone an no finials at the post office an no informed … Continue reading Amazon sucks…

Damn, I learned somethingπŸ˜‚

Sent realtor what I wanted our MLS to say and said, I can send them by mail for the pics an video, just need address an her response did not send me off the deep end.... She suggested Google drive....Now that app is on the Ipad I got for christmas, but never used it, nada, … Continue reading Damn, I learned somethingπŸ˜‚

Face Book deleted….

After a while you get fed up with humans playing god, especially since gods are only a manifestation in your brain..... Last face book page deleted and I am done... First time I got on FB was after Don died in 06, and they shut down 3 of those pages over the years, so it … Continue reading Face Book deleted….

Never had a Smore…

I have no memory of ever eating one... We happen to be watching Wipeout an a commercial to meet neighbors, involved Smores... Mike said he had never an so did I..... I think we will have to correct that some day... Sgt USAF DAV I Remember Margie....

The brain revolts when changes happen….

Okie dokie.... 20 months I have had my memory and remembering my past.... and have I made ANY progress of ANY kind??? Mike thinks so and so do I... yet, I still have work to do and I really try hard not to beat myself up for not accomplishing it all in one big bang … Continue reading The brain revolts when changes happen….

Tired of the uproar…

We moved exercise equipment out and bed in, unpacked stuff to make room in shed for equipment... Dogs just a little antsy, because we have kennels out too, they know something is up... Lil girl decided nap time after all the activity this morning.... brother got the floor... Hubby putting fancy bed frame together an … Continue reading Tired of the uproar…

Hello Charlie horse….

Nothing like being woke up at 3AM by a charlie horse in my calf and it woke me from a sound sleep, which I was not happy about... but, the memory that came forward I was very happy about.... I can remember before the near death and stroke at 13... I had internal issues... because … Continue reading Hello Charlie horse….

It’s True what they say about Face Book…

Lets see, I think it's been 48 hours or there about and you know what, I slept better last night... I have read several psych papers on the detriment Face Book does to mental health and thought, nope, not going to happen... well was that dumb of me... it did exactly what the shrinks says … Continue reading It’s True what they say about Face Book…

Bigotry, Biden Own it or stay a Christian and never walk Humanity footsteps……..

I was indoctrinated into the christian faith, just as gullible as the next yahoo.... and I was taught to believe being gay was the worse of worse... all the while christians raped me, and beat me to death.... wow, you really can not fix stupid, even when you do it as a child... Listening to … Continue reading Bigotry, Biden Own it or stay a Christian and never walk Humanity footsteps……..

Word Press sets you up to fail??? Christians???

I could care less about numbers, I check back on my site because hubby caught a spell or grammar error, since I have vision issues till eye surgery... Now word press lets you know in graphic color how UN SUCCESSFUL YOUR WRITING IS???? WHY???? Are they trying to get rid of paying customers??? I get … Continue reading Word Press sets you up to fail??? Christians???

Maggi, Okinawa 1971 edited

Naha AFB, at the private cove summer 71 Notice anything odd??? Can you spot the issue???? I was doing my exercises, like a good girl... okay, I am making myself do the exercises and as I was laying on the floor working my left leg and image came to mind and it was on Okinawa … Continue reading Maggi, Okinawa 1971 edited

Decimation of Democracy by christians….

Decimation of democracy or any kind of free thought is not new, especially when it comes to christians... just look at the Spanish Inquisition or the Salem Witch Trials or the murder of millions of Jews.... Sleep was bad for both of us last night... and up at 4AM and making coffee... Well I guess … Continue reading Decimation of Democracy by christians….

I can not do it…

Over the decades I have fought to grow my hair long, ever since Big Springs, Texas....over 50 years.... I have mastered the basic braid, but can not get my hands an brain to work, to do more complicated braids... Always had an interest in macrame, but could not get the hang of making knots.... Some … Continue reading I can not do it…

Reconcile the past to move forward???

What I had planned to write since early this morning, is exactly what the title says... When Don died in 06, I shed no tears and I was not by his side, you'll have to go back and read what mommy dearest and the half sister did.... Yet, when he died, I wonder why I … Continue reading Reconcile the past to move forward???

Honestly Word Press, you are turning into censorship 101…

Turned my pc off... and re-did my internet, so I have a direct connection to the modem, thinking okay, I am giving word press a hard time, because the system thinks proxy or some crap.... WRONG!!!! Just a FYI my IP is not rotating.... so that is not the issue, which would cause issues with … Continue reading Honestly Word Press, you are turning into censorship 101…

Reconciling the Past and Word Press is a royal pain in the ass!!!

Other than just spending the last minute and a half trying to get back into my Word Press web site, when my PC was on an active... I NEVER LOGGED OUT!!!! but the stupid program kept popping up with the sign in!!!! So over this stupid site!!!! I was going to write about reconciling the … Continue reading Reconciling the Past and Word Press is a royal pain in the ass!!!

All about Peggy, always was and still is…

I left for basic training, not even 2 full months after the birth of my 2nd son... and it tore my heart out to leave my kids for several weeks of basic and on to tech school... but I wanted to be able to support my kids and take care of us, without a man.... … Continue reading All about Peggy, always was and still is…

Our Vision is so precious….

I have a daughter in law, who is blind in one eye and yet she seems to accomplish what ever she decides she wants to get done... I didn't appreciate her struggle until my own vision started going south, north, east, west.... what ever direction those cataracts want to be... I have no say... Today … Continue reading Our Vision is so precious….

25 years of marriage, who would have thought that was possible….

When I married Mike, we had gone to Spokane to buy a car, we were in shorts and tank tops and looked anything but presentable... so we popped over to Idaho and said our I Do's at the quickie establishment and headed home... that was 25 years ago and what a ride... He has stood … Continue reading 25 years of marriage, who would have thought that was possible….

Trump and Christians are just my excuse to block Margie….

Ironic isn't it... we as a spieces have always been critical of ourselves, but only after we got religion... and then it all became a head fake of excuses to commit the worse crimes against each other... because this man made god would make it all right again... How's that working for you???? I am … Continue reading Trump and Christians are just my excuse to block Margie….

Why Didn’t YOU STOP???

Watching TV during my short break, I was watching the Zoo and they had to put a baby penguin down... and it touched all the staff, even though it was just days old, it still touched the staff, because they see the cycle of life daily.... I saw that same cycle of life by the … Continue reading Why Didn’t YOU STOP???

Neuropathy… exercise works…

Neuropathy, peripheral like I have and the Autonomic... are the most challenging health issues I have ever had to deal with... Surgery is nothing compared to fixing these issues.... The pain is non stop and you get so used to it, when anyone ask your pain level you just shrug and say it hurts, it … Continue reading Neuropathy… exercise works…

Word press has lost my business!!!!

I like a dumb dumb accidentially paid for this site until fall of 2020.... I just spent the last several minutes trying to get into my site!!!!! So I am over you word press and your inability to code and NOT FUCK UP MY SITE!!!! I get our living on Hawaii and using satellite internet … Continue reading Word press has lost my business!!!!

Zuckerberg is now god and a founding father of America????πŸ™ŠπŸ™‰πŸ™ˆπŸ§šβ€β™€οΈπŸ§žβ€β™‚οΈπŸ§žβ€β™€οΈπŸ§œβ€β™€οΈedited😘

Just to let ya know fantasy is fun, but reality is a bitch slapper.... Could have sworn that was a Jewish name... but I have no clue where the dude is from.... just that he cheated his college friends and founded a company that now thinks censorship is acceptable regardless of the first amendment of … Continue reading Zuckerberg is now god and a founding father of America????πŸ™ŠπŸ™‰πŸ™ˆπŸ§šβ€β™€οΈπŸ§žβ€β™‚οΈπŸ§žβ€β™€οΈπŸ§œβ€β™€οΈedited😘

Big Springs, Texas… Margie’s place of death….

Living on Hawaii and it hits summer, you hope with all you have... You got AC.... and last summer or just before, when the eruption was happening, we ordered one and it was installed and last night we slept like babies.... now that electric bill, ouch.... I dreamed last night, I was tired, exhausted after … Continue reading Big Springs, Texas… Margie’s place of death….

Happy birthday…

Art work my son did 22 years ago... 42 years ago, labor was induced after carrying the baby for 10 full months... Appendix removed at 6 months gestation an delivery was chaos... A little child born on the 22nd of June, conceived on Italian soil, but born in America... Hope the day is all you … Continue reading Happy birthday…

What was my first clue, something was wrong??? edited

By the time I saw the military board, I had re-enlisted, got promoted, taken the E-5 test and hit a road block, was in college, while active duty and had orders for Japan along with my active duty spouse and it happened... and from what I have learned, it was illegal and violated my civil … Continue reading What was my first clue, something was wrong??? edited

When you remember too much…

Last night, sleep did not come easy... Facial muscles kept locking into place, leaving me an my jaw in uncomfortableness..... A situation again, that goes along the lines of scleroderma, something I am acutely aware could be sneaking in the door.... The damage from the beating at 5 years old that left my whole body … Continue reading When you remember too much…

Got to Own it when you cause the issue…edited

The health issues lately, I forgot, I was informed an the blog has the day, tri west was no longer our insurance an VA was taking over... One real sweet lady told me back this spring about it, which is when I knew Trump lied about taking care of vets... All Trump did, sacrifice us … Continue reading Got to Own it when you cause the issue…edited

Drone fun…

Today is hubby's birthday an he has always secretly wanted a drone.... an it arrived today in time for his day.... Got one that has GPS homing, so it can not get lost, with a good camera, so we can do video for the MLS web site for our house we are selling an if … Continue reading Drone fun…

Moments of joy and NO VA!!! Eye surgery is happening here!!!

Moment of joy.... Fuck the VA... I have medicare and I am using it... Called my eye doctor and they are referring me to another doctor here in town and I will get my surgery done in the next few weeks... If I let VA handle it, it will be months.... How Trump and the … Continue reading Moments of joy and NO VA!!! Eye surgery is happening here!!!

Tooth comes out VA signs death sentence…

Surgery to remove this tooth... July 11th.... I am in pain, have not had a day free of mouth pain for a year now.... Hows that wall along the border working you??? This is health care for veterans in America... House price gets lowered, so we can get put of here before the Hilo VA … Continue reading Tooth comes out VA signs death sentence…

My patients were combat Vets… Vietnam….

I get that people will get upset if one of us veterans with PTSD loses our temper... YOU THINK WE ARE HAPPY ABOUT IT TOO???? But.... the majority of us, who have PTSD along with Traumatic Brain injuries... live in a world of constant turmoil, that is just every day to you... I quit using … Continue reading My patients were combat Vets… Vietnam….

Trump kills Veterans health care…edited

Get this package in the mail, that says I can go here and there and I have choices... but I got to keep my care in 40 miles of where I live and since I am on a Island... you figure it out... So I call Tri west and tell them I would like a … Continue reading Trump kills Veterans health care…edited

Tooth coming out???

Jimminey Crickets... got a call from the dentist and they got approval today to have the tooth extracted on the VA's dime... just a FYI... Now when that will be, not big deal to me now... the antibiotic the doc gave me for the bladder/kidney thing, made the issue in my mouth better, so an … Continue reading Tooth coming out???

Remembering stopped the “Passive/Aggressive”???

Like I said before, I got 100% from the VA, because I should have met a medical board, but the reputation of the base was more important... so the Air Force cooked up the above diagnosis... only one problem... so far the VA, as far back as 1997... those test results say PTSD...... Now Mike … Continue reading Remembering stopped the “Passive/Aggressive”???

My dependent gets immediate health care and me, the veteran waits, and waits and waits…

Hubby had a heart incident, EMS, Ambulance and ER... whole 9 yards a couple weeks ago.... and he had to see his primary yesterday... so she ordered a ultra sound of his blood clot and got that call yesterday and already is scheduled... Been seeing the dentist for several dental issues for the past year... … Continue reading My dependent gets immediate health care and me, the veteran waits, and waits and waits…

This is Normal for me and never will be for you….the VA wins on Hawaii and I sit waiting for my brain to be impacted by a dying tooth…

How I live, think, behave, feel, talk, walk, kiss my own ass... that is all individual to me and shrinks and neuros really don't seem to get that... they rely to heavily on text books.... I rely on living it for 60 years.... One thing about this journey, knowing for sure, not suspicions... but facts, … Continue reading This is Normal for me and never will be for you….the VA wins on Hawaii and I sit waiting for my brain to be impacted by a dying tooth…

Symptom tracker…

Last winter, when my head was exploding and they did the EEG, MRI, MRA... but no dental x-rays...................... We found out that my memories about the stroke and all that jazz were on target....but... that head pain that was totally freaking this old woman out... well... It's the tooth... the nerve damage inside my skull … Continue reading Symptom tracker…

I was always in the Driver’s Seat…

As much as I rag about what I have been thru... and you figure, it's my right... I am the one that endured the beatings from the time I was able to walk until I stood up to the man an told him to never touch me again... and that was the last physical blow … Continue reading I was always in the Driver’s Seat…

Nuances of PTSD

I had to pause for a moment before writing, an all that has transpired since the Sutherland Springs, Texas killing, played thru my mind an it felt light an yet still so heavy.... Quitting Levothyroxine has had a slight impact negatively, but a short time only with my hair an nails.... The Premarin cream stopped … Continue reading Nuances of PTSD

Censorship so small minded….

Going to be a hot day on Hawaii, where assholes are a dime a dozen... but this paradise is my little slice of heaven an Trump an Zuckerberg can go jump off the cliffs... Hope springs eternal... TimesUp #MeToo WhyIDidntTell Sgt USAF DAV I Remember Margie.... but Zuckerberg is trying so hard to silence her....

Trust is earned, not given…

Trust and fear... wow, at one time I was beyond naive, I guess we all are at one time or another in our lives.... but mine lasted a very long time..... Because I was never told about the stroke or any of the other injuries inflicted upon my body as a child... and of course … Continue reading Trust is earned, not given…

I lost my Fear???πŸ™ŠπŸ™ˆπŸ™‰

🀬Ticked off at Mike this AM, he pushed his body to hard and paid for it last night, which means I didn't get much sleep.... and I tore into him this morning about it and what we just went thru at the ER!!! So over stupid!!! His comment to me, because I just had ordered … Continue reading I lost my Fear???πŸ™ŠπŸ™ˆπŸ™‰

Humility lesson….

Nothing new with that... I try an learn from my own bigotry and hate or dislike of many things in life... real or imagined.... Before I got my memories back, paranoia was my number one companion and fight or flight.... Since getting my memories back over the last 20 months, it has been humbling in … Continue reading Humility lesson….

Married 6 times before age 40….πŸ™ˆπŸ™‰πŸ™Š

Kind of a mind blower, even when I think about it...We got married after knowing each other only a few months and one night at the Cariboo in Okanogan... Mike asked me what I wanted and I said.... Your last name.... a few months later I got what I wanted and he got more than … Continue reading Married 6 times before age 40….πŸ™ˆπŸ™‰πŸ™Š

Thru the Rabbit Hole

I have many things I can not tolerate visually and it's been that way since the TV beating.... One sensation that I deal with and oh boy could it be a fun ride and only in the last year have I finally put it together... that falling sensation, will happen any time, any place and … Continue reading Thru the Rabbit Hole

Being Trolled…😌😌😌

It just dawned on me, just how special I am... I am being trolled by Zuckerberg..... He has shut down two of my pages, an I published nothing worse than what our own President has said... So you tell me why Zuckerberg is so concerned with this little old white woman who DOES NOT believe … Continue reading Being Trolled…😌😌😌

De ja vu

I wrote this past winter, the bad headaches, yada, yada an MRI results showed stroke an TIA....but...I also saw the dentist several times since last May of 18... an now I am in real lousy pain an Monday will be the earliest we can do surgery...guess what help cause the headaches an as a dental … Continue reading De ja vu

It rained, now its pouring…πŸ™ˆπŸ™‰πŸ™Š

Uncle, honest I get it... I get suicide.... I get depression an most of all, I get being overwhelmed... Bridge the VA did, my tooth is gone, oral surgery would have been today, but, contractor maybe, ceiling maybe...so surgery next week an I may loose more than one tooth... Frustrating when you tell peeps the … Continue reading It rained, now its pouring…πŸ™ˆπŸ™‰πŸ™Š

Face book censorship…

Just more proof of Zuckerberg playing god, which is the only gods we have ever had.... HUMANS.... You can not fix stupid, but mental health is ready an willing to help with delusions... As a person with multiple TBIs, delusions are part of the initial injury, but you do make your way out of darkness...... … Continue reading Face book censorship…

Tackling my Frustration….

Never dull in my life, something is always going on and when the birth family was a part of my life, it was non stop drama.... this morning after another censorship by god Zuckerberg... I am tired and beyond frustrated.... Silenced again by a christian.... nothing new there and as long as the delusional believe … Continue reading Tackling my Frustration….

Anger, Frustration, nope, just life……..

Face book censoring me is nothing new... I have hit a nerve with someone who knows me and they don't like me showing them that religion is delusional... so we are suppose to continue to enable the mentally ill, that, I will never get.... Watching Trump in action and the corruption of the christian faith, … Continue reading Anger, Frustration, nope, just life……..

Face Book Censorship

Just proof of what I said... unlike christians, I do not lie, I can not... My brain injury damaged my short term memory an I have known that since my military time... Anyway just proof about my being censored... Sgt USAF DAV

Bird song…

I can hear in the background the song of the red cardinal... it is mating season... we are seeing the mini red headed cardinals, connecting with the less attractive female.... It never ceases to amaze me how nature just picks its self up and dusts its self off... This time last year, we were being … Continue reading Bird song…

Yummy… decadent…. sweetness…

Tonight we harvested a white pineapple, this will be so sweet an full of juice, it makes can, a poor cousin... Navel oranges maturing an Haas avocado getting bigger... Hawaii has its good an bad an growing stuff, is as good as it gets, year round.... TimesUp #MeToo Whyididnttell Sgt USAF DAV I Remember Margie....

Knowing, has made a world of difference….

Not being told you had a stroke, is without words the cruelest thing any person has done to me that calls themselves christian... because christian is not what the white man makes it.... Knowing, every physical health issue I have had since my military time, finally explained... Knowing, not once but twice the VA determined … Continue reading Knowing, has made a world of difference….

Trumpism… nah… just the norm….

Watching the news is just boring anymore, which means I am getting immune to it and if that is happening in our household, it's happening in many others.... I see some hope in all this mess.... those of us, who are tired of political correctness and putting a god before me or any other citizen … Continue reading Trumpism… nah… just the norm….

Face book down???

Been busy all day an I sit down to update for the kids an can not post... Privacy setting just spins an it comes back as an error for posting... Last time this happened they shut down my face book page... I thought censorship was bad in communist countries I have been too, but face … Continue reading Face book down???

Depression, walking in the door….

Never turn your back on that demon from hell... but if nothing else it made me laugh at myself, when I realized what I had running on my side bar wasn't code, it was a diagnositic thing running in the background... I think I will leave cyber security to the seeing..... Depression has been hanging … Continue reading Depression, walking in the door….

Choices… not miracles… Choices…

Life is and always will be about choices.. Those who think the world is mystical and based on religion or rhetoric, will never get this concept... you made a concious choice to buy into mystic and religious beliefs... which are founded on stories and not facts or science... so I suggest you read something else … Continue reading Choices… not miracles… Choices…

When the neuro net makes unfiltered an understatement…

Last few days, unfiltered about religion is an understatement.... good thing we are still here an not moved yet😳... I let this one go unchecked an I knew it was happening an declined to stop it.... Not so much as to get attention, but to put it out there that god lovers, christians, muslims, what … Continue reading When the neuro net makes unfiltered an understatement…

What happened to my Fear???

There are many forms of fear, some will be from a movie or story.... Some will be from a confrontation with another or any kind of assault.... Some fear may just be manifested in the imagination... thus the need, some humans think.... the need for a god... We are repairing the ceiling drywall tape... This … Continue reading What happened to my Fear???

Internet interference from???

I get what I see, most of you can't, because you don't have a bar on the side of your screen that is showing code and when that codes goes goofy and the program I am in does what it shouldn't... I know the internet is being dicked with.... and since I am on my … Continue reading Internet interference from???

PTSD Nightmares are still here….

You never know what will flash before your eyes or what will come forward in a nightmare.... PTSD is not selective on its torment... it's just torment... Today while doing our couple of miles, I told Mike it was still a shock to the brain or conciousness, knowing what my mother and father did to … Continue reading PTSD Nightmares are still here….

America…founded by Laws…

America has never been a nation of religion... America was founded on democracy and laws... Only the religious believe that has no value... why??? RAPE! THEFT! LIES! CHEATING! MURDER! ASSAULT!!! That is what they want to make America.... the religious, so they can do what they want.... but that invisible god will forgive them..... You … Continue reading America…founded by Laws…

Reflections of life without a man made god…

Hubby is off to get what we forgot at Home Depot... Showing scheduled for tomorrow and thankfully we have not torn into the ceiling drywall.... yet.... how ever, we did get the room emptied... Every night I go to bed without thinking twice about saying a prayer.... my soul sings loudly and lets me sleep … Continue reading Reflections of life without a man made god…

Half hour wasted…

Took that long just to get one account to work on face book.... Zuckerberg thinks every person has high speed internet... Thats okay, life always evens the playing field, an I plan to be around to watch Zuckerberg an Trump go to Rikers.... Sgt USAF DAV I Remember Margie....

Censorship by Zuckerberg….

It is real an happening.... My blog is not showing except in my primary page on FB, have not seen one blog post in two days in my other feed or hubby.... When you allow censorship, you allow people to tell you how you have to live your life.... All christians have ever done... rape, … Continue reading Censorship by Zuckerberg….

Making It Right…

The ceiling from who knows... all we know, builder contractor did not get it right from the get go and we always sell a quality home for that price range it is in.... So... Mike will tear out ALL the professional screw up work and get it ready for me😳 to do the repair and … Continue reading Making It Right…

A Proper Up Bringing… What a Bigoted Statement…

Define proper... do you even have a clue what proper behavior is or protocol or anything else that has to do with up bringing??? Thought not.... For anyone to say they had a "Proper Upbringing"... I will show you a bigot... because they just said they are better than you and usually the people that … Continue reading A Proper Up Bringing… What a Bigoted Statement…

I Remember the Pain of this Day….

Covered in bruises... If you look and few people really do look at anything, you can see the blunt force trauma fractures and bruising... For a long time now I have been trying to figure out why I have so much pain in my left rib cage area.... I know what broken ribs feel like … Continue reading I Remember the Pain of this Day….

Took 3 minutes and repeated request to sign in, when I AM ALREADY SIGNED IN!!!!!!!

Word press, I had something to write about, concerning the stroke and it took me 10 tries to get this stupid site to open to let me write, and it kept asking me to sign in!!!!!!!!!! SO OVER THIS SITE!!!!!

What will the Trumps pull tomorrow???

I thought after Nixon, there would never be another crook in the white house.... boy where we all wrong... Sitting and watching "Spaces Deepest Secrets" and my mind went to the thought, wonder what Trump will pull tomorrow... I used to think that way about my parents... I always had to plan, extrapalate, calculate and … Continue reading What will the Trumps pull tomorrow???

Hawaii fresh water…

That big silver tin can, is a 10,000 gallon fresh water catchment.... We had a green house in that brown spot, an since we are moving, it was taken down an as you see, tank not so pretty.... So some green backs later, we have some colorful tropical plants that will grow to hide that … Continue reading Hawaii fresh water…

Life after rape, near death and lies…edited

Life is the most fascinating live action out there and so many perfer, distraction, drugs, sex, crime and religion, instead of living.... Sleep the elusive part of my life since I was about 5 years old... those pictures I showed ya recently.... that was when the PTSD took a real hold on my life and … Continue reading Life after rape, near death and lies…edited

“Some Things are Best Not Remembered”…. per Freda… edited

How's that for a title of my book??? We were out doing our mile walk and I was chewing hubby up for our 4 hour stint in the ER last night... he went by ambulance and I had to drive... oh yea... not on the way home in the dark though!!! Anyhow, my mind has … Continue reading “Some Things are Best Not Remembered”…. per Freda… edited

Blunt Force Truama Fractures… decades later…

Covered in bruises... The beating happended before I turned 6 and Freda was pregnant with David... guess that is going to be her excuse for breaking this baby's bones... You can see the indents in the arms and that is the place the breaks are and when bone scans were done when I was active … Continue reading Blunt Force Truama Fractures… decades later…

Instant body freefall….

Ever be standing or sitting and all of a sudden you feel like you are in free fall... for those who don't have a clue, think of an elevator and the bottom just dropped out... it is that kind of sensation... one that I have felt since the stroke in Texas.... so about 52 years … Continue reading Instant body freefall….

Trophy picture…

If you look, an most never really look.... Can be you be detective an tell me the blunt force trauma to this 6 year old child??? These are Injuries from TV interview... Do you remember the weapon of choice the mother used on this child for telling the truth??? How much of my story have … Continue reading Trophy picture…

Texas stroke evidence….

I said I never scuffed my shoes before age 13... I turn 65 soon and I can remember on Japan, which puts us there after the stroke an when the TIA (brain bleed) happened and no more Sunday school, yada, yada, an my shoes start to wear like this.... I had that aha moment 5/16/19.... … Continue reading Texas stroke evidence….

Chicken defenses on HawaiiπŸ˜†

After $350 for fencing, we have blocked our neighbors livestock... I can only imagine suing them for involuntary man slaughter if Mike had a heart attack chasing them out of our plants... USDA, my last government job... we are zoned agricultural, so laws you "HAVE" to comply or bad things happen... the kids next door, … Continue reading Chicken defenses on HawaiiπŸ˜†

How many die by our hands???

So that border wall... It sure is impacting every murder that has happened under the GOPs watch and Trumps... Every murder, like today... American citizen who could get a gun legally... How many coming across the border have Trump an his base murdered??? Christians are destroying America, just like slavery did.... TimesUp #MeToo WhyIDidnttell, those … Continue reading How many die by our hands???

Proof the stroke happened in Texas in 67 at 13 years old…at the hands of christians…

When you live in a military household, especially those enlisted ones... money was tight in our time and it was tight when I went active duty 10 years later... but, that is not about the stroke, the following is... I have, like any good human, tried to wrap my head around the abuse that christians … Continue reading Proof the stroke happened in Texas in 67 at 13 years old…at the hands of christians…

How the neuropathy set me up…

I wrote last fall and through the winter my issues I was trying to figure out an saw the dentist during that time... this time they did X-rays... The pain up the right side of my skull is directly dental related... Once the doc pointed the x-ray out to me an I could blink the … Continue reading How the neuropathy set me up…

Blunt force trauma fractures, 6 decades later…

Doing the hand exercises the PT taught me are painful... When a doc I worked with in the dental clinic accussed me of throwing the instruments, I knew what happened, I just didn't understand it at that time... Now that happens on a daily basis... Not much you can do, when you can not grasp, … Continue reading Blunt force trauma fractures, 6 decades later…

Individual Rights… christians think not….

I am reminded of the hippy days and them spitting on soldiers coming back from a war they didn't start... but christians did.... and those same are in congress now and the white house... I am reminded of the riots and demonstrations and burning of bras.... I am reminded of the fight for a womans … Continue reading Individual Rights… christians think not….

Nature, the only god…

To the east, the rain is coming.... To the west, a rainbow pierces a cloud as the light refracts in the sky... All made from stardust, as are we all... such beauty an I will never understand christians need to destroy what sustains us.... I really do need to buy stock in that garlic farm..... … Continue reading Nature, the only god…